you realize who your real best friend is. one day it just hits you. wow. they're my best friend. I love them so much. more than anything. then you wonder if they feel the same. you ask them. they agree. you're so happy. you feel like you're on top of the world. but then you witness the truth. they don't actually love you. you're not their #1. you're just somebody who has no life whatsoever. they only feel bad for you. you're just second choice. you don't actually matter to them. you don't actually matter to anyone really. nobody actually cares...
