Clouds

CHAPTER 35

Clouds POV

The car ride is silent, with my mother only glancing back a few times to make sure Chandler and I stayed as far as possible from each other...

"so..Chandler..how's your father.."

"William's great..he's dating someone new.." I could tell by Chandler's voice he despised his father..

"oh.."

I looked out the window trying to not think about Lillian..I miss her so much..

After about an hour of driving my mother spoke up,

"we're here.." I face my mother as she gets out the car.. I look at Chandler him a small smile..obviously a fake one..

We walk out the car and see we are at the entrance of a funeral home..I blink my eyes repeatedly to stop tears flowing down my face

"hey, it's okay..you can do this..." Chandler grabs my hand tightly as we walk in..

Everything looks beautiful, blue roses are in front with a small brown casket and rows of benches facing it..

I am greeted by Lillian's mom..Genesis..

"hello Claudia.." I could tell by her voice and eyes she has been crying nonstop

"I'm so sorry, I feel like its all my fault.." Genesis gives me a weak smile before guiding me away from Chandler and my mother

"I'll only steal her for a minute.." she says

we walk near the entrance of the building where she grabs my shoulders.. sighing

"I was wondering if..if you could sing that lullaby, the one your mother would sing whenever you or Lillian got hurt?"

"p-parting glass.." I whisper

Genesis nods, my mother hasn't sang Parting Glass in 6 years.. I don't even know if I remember the lyrics..

"I'll try.."

"thank you.." she hugs me tightly, letting a few tears escape my eyes

I walk back into the room where Chandler spots me and jogs his way towards me

"I think you parents hate me" Chandler chuckles

"yea, I've noticed.." I didn't mean it harshly it's just all I could think of was the lullaby..it always made Lillian happy after something sad..

The service starts, My family and Chandler sit on the right while Lillian's family and close relatives sit on the left. The whole place is quiet with only the sobs of a broken mother filling the room.

Genesis walks up to the stand looking at the closed coffin..

"Lillian, I love you so much don't you dare forget that..I know if you were right here right now, you would be crying your little eyes out for how sorry you are for getting your self hurt.." she laughs a little imaging it

"but don't worry sweetie, I'm not mad..I'm no where near mad..I miss you.. mommy loves you..Claudia?" My tear soaked face slowly looks up, I stand looking at Chandler giving him a weak smile... here I go..

Chandler's POV

Clouds walks up to the stand as Lillian's mom goes to sit back down

"well, what can I say? Lillian has been my best friend ever since I can remember..We always had each others back through thick and thin.."

I get tapped on the shoulder, looking back I see Sam still kinda bruised and Brittany sitting down..

"how- I thought you were supposed to stay in the hospital for a few more days.."

"I couldn't miss my own girlfriend's funeral..it's my own fault she's gone..I have to apologize to her mom..and pay my respects.."

I nod, Sam's a good kid. Beyond that, its just depends on when he wants to show it.

"I bet Lillian still remembers this song.." Cloud smiles

Of all the money that e'er I had

I've spent it in good company

And all the harm that e'er I've done

Alas it was to none but me

And all I've done for want of wit

To memory now I can't recall

So fill to me the parting glass

Good night and joy be with you all

Tears fall down her face..

Of all the comrades that e'er I had

They are sorry for my going away

And all the sweethearts that e'er I had

They would wish me one more day to stay

But since it falls unto my lot

That I should rise and you should not

I'll gently rise and I'll softly call

Good night and joy be with you all-

She stops half way, she puts her head down and grips tightly the edge of the stand.. through the mic you can hear her soft sobs trying to escape

"Clouds.." I whisper

She looks at me straight in the eyes..letting go of the stand and running out from the stand..

"I'm sorry.." she yells, her tears flowing down..

(You and I by one direction here cx)

I quickly get out of my seat and run after her..please don't do something stupid Clouds

Cloud's POV

I run out the building and out to the side walk running, curse heels

"Clouds, stop!" Chandler's sweet voice makes me cry harder..

I twist my ankle and fall down to the ground, Chandler takes this chance and finally reaches me hugging me from behind

"stop..stop.." he breathes heavily trying to catch his breath

I cry hard gripping on to his white dress shirt..

"no more..no more running Clouds..please no more, stop running from your life.."

He was right, all I do is run..run from my problems.. its what I do best.. running has got me through Brady's death, my brake up with Chandler, and maybe even my own best friend's death..

He cradles my small body whispering sweet things in my ears..

"Clouds?"

"hmm?" I look up at Chandler's smiling face

"you'll get through this, because I'll be right by your side.."

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