Chapter 18: Voices

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Finns POV

Tell him finny Boi. You know you want to. But'cha can't. And I find that funny. I think you should leave your husband and daughter. They'd be bettor off without you. Just. Kill. Yourself.

I'd been hearing the same 9 sentences over, and over again. To the point of taking them into consideration. But why. What did I do to have these thoughts. My life was perfect. Was there something wrong? I doubt it.

I knocked on Jack's door. He was with Sophia, her half asleep. I hesitated to tell him because there was nothing wrong but I felt the need too.

"Come in." He said quietly.

"I- I have to tell you something. Bbut I don't want you to freak out or anything." I said extremely fast.

"Yea? What is it babe? Come sit." He pat the bed next to him. Once I sat down I replayed the speech I had put together in my head.

"I've been uhm..." I stumbled, "I've been hearing these voices in my head. They say these terrible things. And I want to just obey them. Because when I do, they'll go away. For good." I manage to spit out.

"Finn, baby, what are they saying?" He asks solemnly.

"Things like, your living a lie, or.. or kill yourself. Things like that." I say. He looks at me. I can see the hurt in his eyes. I look down.

"Finn..." He asks, "don't. Your not living a lie. Your family needs you. I need you." He assures me. I nod and kiss him.

"Mushy!" Sophia says with one eye open. I kiss her on the forehead and smile.

"Go to sleep!" I say and leave.

Once Jack's done with Sophia he comes out of the room and sits with me on the couch. I mute the TV so he can speak.

"I doubt that there is anything wrong but we should go to the doctor." A sad look crawls onto my face. "I want to go. I want to make sure that you're in 100% tip top shape."

I smile

"Only the best for you baby." I joke and kiss him.

I grab his cheeks and pull him closet. I can feel the warmth of him beating on my chest. I sit on his lap and kiss him more. Then I lower myself to his neck, almost leaving hickeys. His head whips up in pleasure. I grab his chin and lock our lips passionately. I let go.

"That's all you get until I'm all better!" I say. He pouts.

We hop into the car and drive off. Sophia still sleeping in the back. We head to the heath Institute. Once we check in, we are leaded to a small room in the back. The doctor walks in.

"So, what brings you two here today?" She asks warmly.

"Well," I say. "I've been hearing these voices. They say terrible mean things. And they drive me insane. Almost to the point of doing what they say."

"Well, in order to know what's going on for sure, we need to preform a PET scan to see what going on in your noodle." She laughs. She leads us into a room with a donut shaped wall in the middle and a bed sticking out. I lay down on this table and get pushed into the machine. My whole life depends on this one price of knowledge.

Yo what a crazy chapter. This book is ending at chapter 20 but, I will have another fack book with more drama, violence, and smut ;)) so, stay tuned

-A(ss)

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