Everything used to be so different.
I was so happy.
So full of life.
So positive.
So energetic.
Even though my life was going downhill I always knew life would get better.
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But on November 9, 2014 that all changed.
I was no longer happy,
full of life,
positive,
nor was I energetic.
I started to cry myself to sleep.
I started starving myself.
I began having panic attacks.
My anxiety stopped me from doing everything I once loved.
I was tumbling down a steep hill.
I began self harming.
I hated myself and life itself.
I was no longer the same girl I once was.
I stopped talking the same.
I stopped dressing the same.
The insecurities became too overwhelming.
The paranoia controlled me.
I couldn't even look in the mirror.
I was rude to my mom.
To my siblings.
I called myself horrible things.
I just want things to go back the way it was.
I want my life to be filled with laughing again.
I'm so used to seeing tears instead of smiles.
I'm so used to hearing sobbing instead of laughing.
YOU ARE READING
Delicate Meanings
PoetryEverything written by yours truly. - I'm just going through some shit trying to get through it all alive. "Nobody's perfect" but they always expect you to be.
