Blood, Fur, Fangs, And Love

Wanting

Harry~

Eleanor just told me the one thing I feared. Louis is hurting himself because of me, I can't believe it. All I ever wanted since that day in the hallway a few months back is to make him smile. Now all I seem to do is make him cry and hurt inside, I've let myself down. He meant so much to me... No! He still means everything to me and I threw it all away. Why did I have to say no and leave him. All because I was scared shitless of being human again.

All because I didn't know if I would stay with him the rest of my life. All because I don't want to grow up and grow old and then die. But I ran away from the one I love and screwed up my life more than it was. I am the reason he cries, I am the reason why he sliced his arms, I am the reason why... He feels the way he does.

So here I am, running through the woods, following Eleanor's car. She doesn't see me but the look she gave me when she pulled out of the parking lot nearly broke my hear. She almost told me to stay away from him with her eyes, but I can't. I need to see him, I need to at least watch him from afar. I want to see his smile and beautiful blue eye that I daydream about. Those beautiful eyes were the last thing I saw when a bullet hit me square in the back.

She turns into a day care center and gets out. She wipes away her tears and puts on a fake smile. I walk out of the tree line and lean up against the building's side. They won't see me but I'll see them, and that's all I need. He won't see me at all hopefully, but I'll get my chance to watch him once again.

They don't come out for a while. So I just kick around the pebbles on the pavement. I contemplate some more if I should or should not approach him. I wonder if that would make him hurt more, to see me and I seem fine. He has no idea though, I stay up and pace the hallway and rooms in my new apartment. I drink so much alcohol I probably reek of it when I get to school. I am forced to wash up before school because Niall won't have me walk around like a zombie.

They come out and I peer around the corner, he walks a few paces behind her. She rushes to the car and gets in, she must be thinking I could be coming. And she's right, I am hear and I am watching him walk. He stops before he reaches the car and pulls something out of his pocket. I can't spot it from here but he looks at it for a little bit and then it falls to the ground. He walks over to the car and get's in. Almost immediately the car pulls out of the spot it was in and runs out of the parking lot.

I wait until they are out of sight and then I walk over to the paper. I pick it up and my mouth falls open, it beautiful and I want it back. It's me and him in the clearing at the school, I seem happy but he seems hollow. I don't think anything of pressing my lips to his face. I want it all back, if I could I'd go back and change it all so this would be us right now. Wanting it all back and dieing inside is all I feel.

I feel the tears slipping one by one down my flushed cheeks. My senses heighten and my breathing sharpens. My head shots up and I look around the busy streets of London. Running at my fastest I make my way to his home, I don't know if they are there yet. I catch sight of El's car at a stop light, I'll be there before them. Running faster than ever I fly up the stairs and through the front door. It slams shut behind me.

My feet climb up the stairs, I don't process anything that's happening. Not until I'm stand up stairs in Louis's room at the window looking out. I watch and wait for the car to pull up, a small smile appears on my face when they arrive. They get out he's smiling and laughing. I listen as they walking the smell of him fills the air, even far away I can smell it. Some vampires might see that smell as dog but it's not to me. Its heavenly and warm.... And familiar.

"Do you wanna build a snowman?" Louis sings and I hear Eleanor giggle and their feet dance around the floor.

"Come on let's go and play!" Eleanor sings.

"I never see you any more, come out the door it's like you've gone away..." I sing softly along with Louis.... Oh how the song lyrics apply to us.

They go on singing a sad song in a happy tone. I hum along with them, and they never notice. They play the movie and then some more after. Louis's laugh makes me smile and feel real and alive, how I want to be the one to make him laugh. I seek around the house silently, even at points standing in the kitchen out of their sight. Again it's I can see them but they can't see me. Eleanor does his hair, braiding all of it in small braids. Louis does her hair, taking gel and spiking up her shorter layers and curling her longer ones.

I chuckle a little when Eleanor looks in the mirror, her reaction is priceless. They bicker on who has the best hair, Eleanor wins and ends up taking a million pictures. Eleanor runs up the stairs and returns with many nail polishes. They scatter the colours about the floor, Eleanor picks a bright pink. She puts it on and Louis reluctantly agrees to getting his nails painted deep red. I secretly snap a few pictures, he's cheeks are red and eyes screwed shut from laughing.

And all this time his bandages are on full display. Covering both forearms and blotches of blood that has soaked threw. They don't seem to care, well Lou doesn't I've caught Eleanor staring a few times. So does Louis, she quickly turns away and starts talking about some gossip on school. I never come up in conversation expect once and then Louis's smile fades and he changes the subject. I don't know what to think of that, so I don't.

When the final movie ends Louis is in a pair of white pumps and has make up on. So does Eleanor her's is quite different, she looks like lady gaga in Applause, with different colours everywhere. I take a picture of that too, before I run up stairs and hide in his closet. He comes up after a few minutes, in that time I decided that tonight I'm going to leave him be. He deserves a night without heart ache.

I watch through the crack of the door as he enters. Looking away as he strips himself of his clothes and gets into a pair of sweatpants. I turn back as he makes his way to the bathroom, taking his 'Human' pill and brushing his teeth. Then it's the moment I wish I had turned away, he removed his bandages and redressed them. Cuts up and down, side to side, criss cross, long and short, deep and shallow. All the way up his forearms, he doesn't even flinch or wince when he cleans them.

I watch in shock as he wraps brand new bandages around then. All I want to do is run out of my hiding spot and kiss each one, and make them disappear. But I don't, all I do is watch him finish up in the bathroom and turn the lights off. Crawling into bed he instantly falls a sleep, snores escape his parted lips. I walk out of the closet and cross the room. Bending down over him I press my lips to his forehead, breathing out the truth.

"I love you."

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