LITTLE HEART ↳ JON SNOW

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DEAR JON,

OR SHOULD I CALL YOU CROW?

Jon I have a question for you.

Why didnt you say goodbye?

You left for the wall and didn't even tell me. Sansa told me when I asked her where you had gone. What made you leave?

Am I not good enough?

Did you forget what we had? We had something great. Was it my fault? Did you leave because you couldn't bear the thought of loving me or being with me? You were one of the only constants in my life and now you are gone.

My heart bleeds for you now that you are gone. Was a goodbye too painful? Or was I not important enough to you to bid your bittersweet farewells?

I want to hate you for what you have done and where you have gone. I have loved you Jon, for years and years since we were children and now you have left and taken a part of me with you. I cannot hear the thought of never seeing your face again.

The king is still here and his wife seems to despise me. All I did was try to help her dress but she just scowled at me and shooed me off. Please tell me how things are there? Is it very cold? Colder than Winterfell? How tall is the wall? Have you made friends?

Jon please answer to this. If you really had the feelings you said you had then you would answer my questions.

What great sorrow you must bear in your heart to give up your entire life to live wastefully at the Wall. You are the son of Ned Stark, bastard or not, you had a future and I am going to remind you as much as I can that you threw it away. I need you to see that this is not a good idea. Not the best you've had at least. I jsut don't understand why you have gone and left me here, alone to fend for myself and live among your family without you.

I pray to the gods that you will return to me, however that may have to happen. I know the wall is a terrible and unforgiving place, but I hope that somehow you will return. Even if you don't want to.

What did I do to you that I did not get the luxury of seeing you one last time?

CATALINA