After dying our hair Andy and I sit gossiping while two ladies do our nails. And I swear the damn Asian ladies are takin about us say "oooooh these cuticles! look at them" Or "ewwww look at their fat fingers!."
"So when do you guys plan on doing it?" Andy asks.
"We're not planning it we're just going to let it happen Ands." I say rolling my eyes.
"You better call me right after you two are done. Well not right after but you know." She says laughing causing me to roll my eyes playfully.
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When I get home I'm shocked to see both my dad and my moms cars in their drive ways. This can't be good.
I walk inside to see my dad sitting at the table drinking a beer, my mom standing at the counter tapping her foot against the tile floor, This is an odd sight to see.
"Dad? what are you doing here?" I ask as I set my purse down on the rack.
"Care to explain what you've been doing hanging around with the Horan boy next door?" mom says her voice harsh, sharp, each word dripping with anger.
"The Horan boy has a name." I say defensively. Dammit. I should've played dumb now she knows I am hanging with him. Oh shit no please no, she couldn't have found the condoms.
"Does it look like I care what that kids name is? no Hailey I don't. Now explain what the hell you are doing hanging out with him?" she says raising her voice am octave.
I should say we're just friends and lie, take the little punishment for being friends with one of the Horan's but that's the thing I don't think of them like my mother. so I don't lie; I grow a fucking pair and blurt out - "he's my boyfriend and his names Niall by the way." I say and my dad nearly spits his beer out.
"Boyfriend? since when?"
"A few weeks." I say trying to stay casual as possible.
"Well it's time to end that, you need to break up with him." She says folding her arms.
"Excuse me?" I say. "No! I will not."
"Let me rephrase that Hailey, you will break up with him, you are grounded and you will not have anymore friend privileges if you say one more word." She says.
"I said NO!" I say surprising myself with how defiant I'm being, go Hailey, woot woot.
"You will in fact right now!" she says pointing to the door before glancing out the window where Niall and the rest of his family are sitting on the porch watching the boys kick a soccer ball around.
This is your time to stick it to her Hailey, do it. You got this. Do it. Do it for you. Do it for the you that broke down crying all those times because she was so unhappy all because her mom wouldn't let her do what she wants to do with her life, do it for that girl.
I march outside as my parents both follow, my mom pissed and my dad enjoying the drama.
"Hailey? what's going on, are you oka-" Niall says as I rush over to him kissing him sweetly.
"Your mom? Hailey? what's going on?" he asks so softly only I can hear.
"Hailey you get in This house right now!" my mom says yelling at me.
"She found out about us, told me to dump you, and here we are." I say shrugging.
"Hailey I don-" he says playing with my fingers.
"Stop, Niall I love you. Nothing will change that. My mom can't keep us apart. she is going to kill me but I promise we'll find a way okay?" I say into his ear before kissing his cheek.
Sooner than I know it my mom is dragging me by the arm back into the house I hear Niall whisper an 'I love you' right before I got dragged off into the hell hole they call my house.
"Your never seeing that boy again! No phone for a month! No Andy! nothing you can sit up in your room for the next month thinking about how horrible you made this family look, running around with that boy making us all look like fools!" she shouts at me as I stomp up the stairs.
I slam my bedroom door shut and jump onto my bed.
It takes my step dad Charlie about a half an hour to get home but as soon as he walks in he marches up to my room and bursts through the door with my mom by his side.
"You think your some hot shot don't you!" he yells as mom puts a hand on his chest but he removes it still steaming mad.
"I got news for you! your not! your not superior to anyone!" he says getting closer to where I'm sat at the foot of my bed.
"I don't think I am." I say softly.
"Yeah right. You have been walking around sneaking around with that boy, making your mom and I look like idiots!" he snaps this time he is directly in my face.
"It honestly wasn't that secretive, you guys just weren't paying attention. " I say shrugging my shoulders.
"Let me tell you something, you think your so bad ass and you rule the world or something but you don't, your worthless." He says, my stomach drops as he calls me worthless. They have always made me feel that way but never have they before actually called me worthless.. until now.
I except mom to jump in but she just leans up against the door and stares at us, no expression on her face, does she even care? mom used to care, she used to love me and I mean truly love me, she did until Charlie.
"Your grounded, your not leaving this room for two months do you understand me!" he screams in my face. I hate when guys scream in my face, my dad is to thank for that.
They leave after that leaving me alone to think. Thinking leads me to over think, and that's never good.
Your worthless. You heard them Hailey your worthless. Nobody cares about you. So why don't you free them all and leave. Free yourself and leave. You can be happy. They can all be happy. -I say to myself while starring at my reflection in the bathroom mirror.
I tap my fingers on the top of the bottle of pills in my hand. Should I do it? will it be better off this way? Am I being selfish? what about Andy? will she survive? will she make other friends.
Andy and I were never cool. We never had friends until each other. We've been each other's only friends since the fifth grade. How do I leave her now? she will be okay though. she won't miss me. It's better off if I leave her because otherwise she will have to deal with all my depression drama.
Niall? what about him? will he hate me? is he mad about this afternoon? Stop Hailey. He will be fine. He won't miss me. He can find some other girl to love, his true princess. not me.
It's time.
It's my time.
This is it.
I walk to my bedroom the bottle of pills in my hands and bottle of water in the other.
I grab a note pad and envelopes and write letters to everyone I can think of, I can't really think of much to write to my parents but to Niall.. I have so much but still it's not all I have to say, something are going to have to go unsaid. Is it sad that he has a longer letter? I stick all the letters in envelopes and write the names on the top of whose it for.
I look out the window across to Niall's house. Before I swallow my handful of pills I whisper, "I'm sorry." of course it's not a fast death it's slow so I text Andy an I'm sorry before falling asleep and letting myself take my last breath.
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Hey guys. Sorry it's been so long since I updated. I know this chapter may make you think it's all over BUTTTTT My dear friends it is NOT! next chapter is in Niall's prove and get a tissue box because damn it's gonna be heart breaking. And I may even put in Andy's prove for a short time. But I assure you ITS NOT OVER. So please don't stop reading! okay I love you all I'm gonna try to update again tonight since it's Friday night! party time.. by myself.. writing!
Love you all. Xx -H
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