Life should be lived to it's fullest, you never know when it can come crumbling down. That's where I am at. I'm only 19 and My life is a mess crumbled, scattered all over the ground. Ashes mixed in with everything I once knew. Not knowing who I am a...
It's been a couple days since I left Alex's house and I have to admit that I really miss him he was a great friend. But I can't put him in any danger I have to protect him the only way I know how even if that means leaving him. I've been staying in this motel not far from my parents house I started to come to accept that this is my life now I'm all alone and I lost my family so everyday I've been going by my parents house cleaning little by little my idea is to clean it up and plant flowers there for my family.
Woman "Get off of me you loser"
Oh yea did I mention this motel sucks it's always fighting couples, cops and robbers over here I know it might not be safe but I don't want to put alex in danger and it still hurts being at miah's house. I haven't told her I'm staying in this motel and honestly I hope she doesn't find out.
Until next time.......
Beep.....Beep.....Beep huh I wake up to my phone Beeping from missed calls and text messages it's alex I've been ignoring him since I left but I know he's only calling because I took the locket off he gave me and left it on his bed.
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I don't think I should talk to him right now I'm going to wait a couple of days I have so much that I have to deal with already. My grandparents are coming to town to help me plan my families funerals I love my grandparents so much but sometimes they become alot to deal with. I hope they don't ask me to move to kansas with them it's so boring there and they live on a farm. I don't want to live there with them I'm happy here at least I have miah left. I'm meeting my grandparents soon at IHOP so I should get ready I get in the shower and sometimes it's still hard not to cry I always sit down and just let everything out.
**** a couple of minutes later****
I get out of the shower and I throw on jeans and a plane black shirt and put my hair into a ponytail Now I'm ready to walk to meet my grandparents. As I walk up to the booth where my grandparents are sitting I over hear them say maybe we should ask her. I'm worried about what they were just talking about.
"Hi grandma Hi grandpa" I say with a huge smile on my face
"Hi sweety we didn't see you pull up what happened to your car?
Honestly I lost my car in the fire that night but I can't tell them that they will just go out and buy me a new one.
"I walked grandma just needed air" I'm sad I just lied to them but I don't want them buying me anything because I've still been having the feeling I'm being watched.
"So dear me and your grandfather took care of everything involving the funeral we didn't want any more stress on you then what your already dealing with" I'm so mad that they did everything without me I wanted to be apart of something but they are right the stress is getting to me I can feel it I don't even eat anymore.
