Sometimes, I just want to go somewhere really far away and not return, that's what everyone wants, but they want it to go with friends.
Clearly the friends I have just have sex over and over again then just rub it in everyone's face.
Clearly, sex isn't what I'm aiming for, unless the partner that I have wants to but, none want to which is okay, I will understand if they don't want to.
Everyday when I'm by myself I think and think, like my mom says
"Don't think to much, that's why you hurt and grow white hair."
But I just can't myself to think, that's all I do now and days.
Clearly, I made and make the wrong decisions when it comes to things with other people, and every time I open my mouth, it causes trouble so mouth is always closed to everyone I talk to.
Besides, who needs me to talk, no one really listens to me, which is fine, that means I watch them suffer every time they open their mouth, and All i get to do is watch and laugh.
Except for some people who I care about, then I go to their aid and help them out.
But like I said,
There are days where I need to go away for awhile and not come back.
For that to happen, I'll wait until adulthood to it.
Perfect.
Just 2 more years of high school and it's off to the military.
Can't wait for that.
