Living with the badboy

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Julias POV

I wanted to go back to school as soon as possible. Staying at 'home' made me miserable, I slept all day mostly after hunter had to go back after the weekends. It is now Monday, yay Monday's. Not the sarcasm.

It has been two weeks since the funeral. Mostly hunter tried to cheer me up by watching movies or going somewhere to eat. It is so sweet how he tries to cheer me up but it doesn't bring back my parents. I think the realization has finally kicked in. My parents are never coming back and I'm all alone without family.

And I want to be stronger but the truth is. I don't know if I am.

I skipped first period because I couldn't get myself to leave my bed.

I walked the empty halls that made my footsteps echo. The dirty floors and torn posters were different then last time I was here. I guess life moves in if you like it or not.

I paused before my classroom. I was already 10 minutes late for class and I didn't even care. My hand reached for the doorknob but retrieved. I wish I could stand here for longer but I have to go back to the stupid cycle my life was before.

I walked in the classroom and everyone abruptly turned their head. The teacher went quiet and looked at me in pity. Just like everybody else. I ignored the stares and whispers and went to my seat. Lucy for me that was right in the middle with everyone around me.

The lesson went on and I grew irritated with the glances I got. Also I was very tired and I didn't want yo pay attention anymore, so I rested my head on my arms and drifted off to sleep.

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I woke up by the ring of the bell. I quickly grabbed my bag and made my way out the classroom.

I need some alone time.

"Jules?" Katy said making my stop abruptly.

"Ehhhr hey" I said awkwardly knowing that I had ignored her calls and texts. I know that that is selfish but I just wanted to end alone and not have everybody's sympathy.

"I'm sorry for your loss"

I didn't reply, I simply didn't know what to respond.

"You know you could have at least texted me. You completely shut me out..." she said glaring at me.

I felt myself shrink a little. Her hard words burned in the back of my mind. I felt guilt flood over me and I felt tears well up in my eyes.

"Sorry" I said become I turned around and walked away in a hurried pace. I guess I lost a friend now to...

I walked in the canteen not knowing where to sit. I didn't Kant to be around Katie after our little fall incident back there. But I don't have anywhere also to sit really.

Everyone began to whisper and stare. The grades above and under us looked confused and I didn't want to be here any longer.

I walked outside to the benches. It was cold outside so they were probably deserted, probably only the people who smoke would be there. Secretly I hoped they weren't.

I sat on the bench for a good 10 minutes knowing the break would be over soon but I didn't want to go back yet. Maybe I should skip next period.

My hands were white and began to get a bit blue. It was very cold outside but everywhere was better than the canteen. My hair wildly blew in every direction flowing with the gushes of wind.

I wish I could just finish and flow with the wind to god knows where.

I was shivering at this point and I wished I had put on a thicker sweater. I pushed my sleeves further over my hands and grappled them around my waist.