Robbie Kay / Peter Pan Imagines

Come back

(Slowly editing all the chapters and renewing them)

*EDITED*

The brightness of the full moon somewhat compliments the stars tonight. I admire the view above as I try to relax. However, I don't feel satisfied at all. It's been hours since I sat down at the top of Dead man's peek. And even though it's quiet and peaceful, it's also very dangerous with all the Dreamshade. But I needed time for myself after what happened in the morning.

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"What did you do?" I asked Peter with tears in my eyes as my voice broke down. He just stood there, looking down at me, no emotion tracing his face. Although guilt should've weighted his stomach down.

Because he shattered my heart with the one thing he could break it with; the necklace of my deceased brother. The only memory I was able to retrieve after the accident. And Pan took it from me. Perhaps even got rid of it.

"It meant everything to me, why did you do it?" I started raising my voice, anger flooding through the angst. He slightly raised an eyebrow. "You know why I did it, Y/N," he hushed with a tone as to indicate the obvious.

Not long ago I finally started to trust him, but I might've been mistaken. He was a monster after all, at least that's what I wanted to believe. Because somewhere I knew I did this to myself, I had broken one of his rules and this was my awful punishment.

"You could've locked me up in the cage, but not throwing away the only memory I had left of my brother!" I could not hold my tears back as they were streaming down my cheeks. "I despise you, Pan! More than anything in the world!" I held back a sob. "You're a monster," I finished with disgust lacing my shaking voice. He seemed shocked for the slightest second. I just stared at him, still trying to process the painful event. But I couldn't handle looking at his face anymore and so I ran outside into the woods.

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Now, after having replayed that moment in my head for at least a hundred times, I regret what I said. It's true that what he did was more painful than necessary, but I had it coming. I broke a rule and no one gets unpunished after doing such thing. I hated Peter for what he did, and felt suffocated for a while, but I don't despise him anymore. I hate myself for harming him like that. Especially after he told me how much I mean to him, yet I still effortlessly managed to harm Peter.

I got it all confirmed. He didn't come find me, although I'm pretty sure he knows I'm up here.
I wonder if he didn't come because he truly can't stand me right now or maybe by the slightest he's considering me and giving me some space.

I honestly am not sure why I'm still here. I came here to be alone, because I was hurt and couldn't find a way to stay in camp. But now I suddenly can't seem to return. My guilt's swallowing me as I feel sorry for the words that were directed to Peter, I'm anxious to face him. I wish I could take back what I said, but I'm uncertain whether he'll forgive me.

As I stare at the ocean in the distance, tears start running down my cheeks again. I have messed up... I screwed up the bond Peter and I grew together. I haven't even been able to properly acknowledge and confess the feelings that I have for him, brewing inside of me. All of a sudden it seems too late for that. Things won't be the same anymore.

"Are you alright?" I get startled when Pan's familiar British voice speaks. My head turns to my right as Peter sits down next to me. I notice he's a bit upset and he seems...fragile. I've never seen him like this before.

"What are you doing here?" I ask while averting my gaze from him. It feels like I might cry the more I'll watch him. "Making sure you are okay," he whispers, as if he doesn't want his voice to deceive him. But his features can't be hidden and reveal the hurt, even when he sounds so sure of himself.

"You shouldn't, after what I said to you," my neutral expression falters as the guilt creeps back. I want to apologize, but I doubt it'll change anything.

Peter on the other hand says something unexpectedly: "You were right, Y/N. I am a monster. I want to apologize for the pain I have caused you...I actually didn't throw anything away," he whispers the last part as his hand reaches into his pocket. My head turns his way and as our eyes meet he hands me the silver neckless I used to wear around my neck.

Quite speechless I let it fall into my palm as he hands my treasure back. A teardrop escapes my eye as I feel even worse for my earlier behavior.

"Peter, I...those words meant nothing," my voice shakes as I deliver my long awaited apology. Peter smiles weakly. "I know they didn't, Y/N," he takes my hand and rubs it softly. He seems calm and it relieves me.

"I should not have done something like that, even though everyone has to be punished, you did not deserve this kind of torture. The boys told me that you were clueless about your actions," his eyebrows nit together. "Can you forgive me?"

I lift my head to meet his eyes as they're waiting for a response. My mind had been clouding me with thoughts all day that things wouldn't get fixed, but Pan's suddenly apologizing. How can I not forgive him?

"Of course I forgive you," my words cause a soft, warming smile to appear on his face. "Thank you, Y/N," He says as his hand reaches for mine.  Peter seems relieved and I can't hold back a smile.

"You can hate me as much as you want if I harm you one more time, alright?" I laugh softly as I sense his bright energy flowing back. "Agreed," I whisper and lean towards him as I gift him a kiss on the cheek.

I trust him.

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