Angels and Wallflowers - 1202

Letter Eleven

Thursday, June 8, 2017
Dear, Friend

I was taken back to the hospital only to find out that i'm being discharged. I was happy but I didn't want to leave my new friends. I didn't want to leave an Angel behind. When Halo Child was discharged she asked me to never leave her. I promised her that I wouldn't try to. She has every right to break my pinky. But when she came back from the school program she looked at me differently. I assumed she had read the letter. The psychiatrist at the ward had asked me if I liked Angel and I had replied yes. Because I did. I did so much and I could tell anyone that. I wasn't afraid to tell her that I liked her but I suppose I had done it in a bad way. The psychiatrist told me that they motivate people to pursue a relationship just not on the ward, which was understandable because not everyone was in the right mentally healthy mindset that they should be to want to love someone. Because I believe that you should love yourself first then love others. I guess that could be why I didn't feel empathy for others since the fight with my mother one and a half years ago. I should have told her in person that I liked her. But another thing Angel said to me and one of the youth care workers was that May 29 was one of her lowest days. And sometimes at night I like to think that it was because of me and what I told her. But I guess I will never know.

The reason behind the name "Angel" was because I had used a pickup line on her that went like: I've never believed in angels until I met you. She then went on to ask if I had a mirror in my pocket because she saw herself in my pants. The thought of that excited me.

I'm going to pull the epilogue letter from The Perks of Being a Wallflower, or what I remember of it.

"So, if this does end up being my last letter, please believe that things are good with me, and even when they're not, they will be soon enough. And I will believe the same about you"

And I think that should conclude this letter, with the same words as Charlie said,

yours truly,
-a