Run It Up 2

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Move marquise get away from me move the fuck out my face I say with my hands on his chest trying to push him away and he grabs hold of my hands and looks at me and says so you you hate me dime you don't love me no more shawty I look at him and y'all I love him I do I love him with all my heart but I'm hurting and at this moment all I feel is hate so I look at him and say yeah I hate you now let me go and he looks down at me and says you love me and I look at him and say no I don't love you and he let's me go and says fine then ill leave you alone then but I'mma be in my sons life regardless of anything you respect that and I'll respect you and your decision even thoe it hurts at this point I understand.I look at him and say okay good and with that he turned his back on me and just like that he was gone almost like he was never here and once I heard the door shut letting me know he left I broke down where I stood and started crying I mean balling and I instantly cuddled myself up on the rug of my room and started crying harder I just wanted to die the pain I felt in my chest hurted like hell I know what y'all thinking I should be glad He's alive and apart of me is but the other part hates him and can't understand why he would do such a thing like fake his death and I think maybe I should let him explain himself but none of that will help the fact that he missed precious moments and it hurts even more cause I'm supposed to be his bey  and he's posed to be my jz we ride through whatever together how can he not think I was gon ride with him and for him till the wheels fell off just how y'all how I just want it all to be over I want this new pain I never experienced called love to end if this is what love feels like I don't want it but its to late I'm in too deep I love him I love marquise brooks aka trigga father of my child but this y'all I don't think I can take pray for me and for us cause we need it.