Let's Be Nothing (I Heard it Lasts Forever) // niley

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Nick

Miley and I spent about 10 minutes hiding near Lautner's locker waiting for him to come, with every minute that passed my courage shrunk and by now I'm left with nothing but worry.

"Look! There he is," Miley exclaimed "Go. Go on."

I looked at her unsure, she sighed before pushing me out into the hall. I straightened myself up and walked over to him, his back turned towards me. The noises of the hallway made it hard for me to concentrate.

"Hey," I finally spoke out, he jumped and turned. His face fell when he saw me.

He was speechless at first, and he was too scared to look me in the eye. I took the next step and spoke "Look, I shouldn't have reacted the way I did yesterday. I just...well I'm not what you think I am, and I ran off because I didn't know what else to do." I explained slowly "But I'm not homophobic, okay? I just want you to know that. I'm fine with you being--" I cleared my throat because I didn't want to say it out loud "I'm still your friend."

"I get it," He spat at me.

"I...wait, are you mad at me?"

He rolled his eyes "Look I realized all those things you just said right after you stormed off."

"So why are you mad at me?!"

He looked around before stepping closer and lowering his voice "Did you tell anyone...that I kissed you?"

"No," I quickly said "Well, I told Miley."

"You told Miley?!" He demanded, and at the mention of her name she crept out of her hiding place and looked at the both of us.

"She's my best friend. And I freaked out," I explained to him.

"What's wrong?" She asked quietly, Lautner looked at her and stepped away from me. He hesitated for a moment and then he looked at me dead in the eye "The whole school knows I kissed Nick."

My stomach dropped, and I was about to grab Lautner's collar and beat him up. "What?!" I exclaimed.

He nodded "I'm fucked up,"

"You?!" I demanded.

"Yes, me! You just got yourself caught up in a nasty rumor...but I just got outed to the whole school! They're saying I tried to turn you. They know you pushed me and ran off, but me?! I'm a fucking desperate homosexual!"

I froze, I could tell he was holding back so much anger, but I have no sympathy towards him...he was upset and I was relieved. "I-I'm sorry," I muttered "I swear dude, we didn't tell anyone,"

He shook his head in disbelief "Then someone must've seen us," He covered his face in distress.

"Dude, I'm sorry--"

"Look, it's fine. I brought this on myself. I should've never made that move on you," He said.

"But...what are you going to do? Everyone's going to pick on you--"

"Then I'll live with it." He said, but I could tell he was scared. I looked around and everyone was already staring at us, at him, in disgust. In judgement. I couldn't bear it. He never asked to be outed! That's his own choice...

He gave me and Miley a shrug and slam his locker shut, he was about to leave when Miley called out to him "Wait," She said "It's just a rumor, Lautner...you can change your fate."

"The whole school has already heard about me kissing a dude in the locker room Miley. My fate is doomed as it is."

"You don't have to come out this way,"