Life is Better Then Sleep
I laid on my rock bed. The surface is smooth and covered in seaweed. Closing my eyes I retied my hair tightly. Hoping fruitlessly that the tie band wont fall out from my restless night terrors.
I'm actually kinda scared to go to sleep. I have tons of nightmares. Terrible ones. I don't ever remember them in the morning though. But I feel pain. And so much of it.
Mother says my ability to see the future is coming up. Every mermaid that is a teenager gets the sight, an a lot more. It's crazy I'm sixteen and sleep deprived. I thought you only didn't get sleep when your an adult. I sigh and close my eyes. No sense running from the current right? It's gonna happen eventually. Safe in my cave walls I drift to sleep in the dark room.
Dark
It's dark and damp.
Claws pin me down. Eyes the color of an impossible light blue.
I scream.
Water...
I need water!
Why can't I change.
WHY. CAN'T... I. CHANGE!
The claws rank threw me...
"Livy! please!!" A male voice begged. Desperate and full of pain.
I scream until my thoat is raw and my soul is shattered.
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I wake up breathing harshly, bubbles flew from my mouth in short pants. Sitting up in my bed. My head throbs. Looking forward I groan hand on my forehead. "Ugh."
"So that's what you think of me?" A voice says in false outrage.
I flinched. My body sitting up more straighter in shock, looking up so quickly it hurt my neck.
It took a minute for my eyes to focus in the dark cave. I stared at my best friend Finn. He grinned at me. I swam off the bed and ram into him. We laugh.
"Finn! You scared the scales off me!" I yelled trying to breath.
"We'll that's your fault. You know I come in here every night, you asked me too." He grinned and rubbed my arms soothingly. I nod.
"I know." I reply softly.
"Then you also know that your safe, and i wont let anything happen to you..." He whispers. Eyes concerned. I realize that i'm shaking. His strong arms hold me. "It was different this time." I told Finn. My dark hair swam around my face, he pushed the strains back. Gray eyes full of worry. I sighed. "I heard this haunting voice" I explained.
Finn remains silent.
He's good at that.
At knowing when words are needed, and when in some situations, its no. and all thats needed is silence. Like now. "I remeber what i saw" i glanced away from Finn.
"He sounded so hurt... I felt so much hurt..." I admitted
Finn stared at me helplessly. As if, if he could make this go away; he would swim past every sea and ocean to make it happen. And i believe he would. He always wants the best for me. He wants me to have dreams instead of horrible nightmares. Nightmares, that can become reality at anytime. He doesnt want me to be afraid and hurt...
And I'm hurting him, by saying this... I thought regetingly.
I smiled a bit. "But it is only a nightmare." I remind him. Finn nodded.
"It will remain that way Livy" He promised.
"I have been by your side since childhood and I will see you past adulthood"
I laughed.
Finn winked at me.
I stared at the bags under his eyes. And guilt pulled at my heart. Because of me he hasn't been sleeping well. His gray sliverish eyes are lazy and tired. His pale blonde hair always floating above his head in lose locks. His tail a pale green. Body long and muscled. "I'll let you get ready." He smiled. "We don't wanna be late."
I frowned.
I'm sorry Finn...
Sorry that i'm so selfish.
Sorry that because i am in pain, you are too.
I want to say the words. I want to tell him to stop coming over at night. But i dont; Because it will only hurt him more. And i couldnt bare that.
