you're not alone, you're with me *~being edited~*

chapter twelve

harlem: skipping to the chase this time

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"Spit it out already Ethan, you're scaring me" Austin laughed while directing his attention to his sock that was falling off his foot. My throat felt tight, my hands were sweating bullets, my breathing was irregular, I felt so nervous.

While Austin was distracted by his sock I finally blurted it out

"Austin Carlile.. I-I think I really like you a-and there is nothing I would rather do r-r-right now than kiss you for being so sweet to me.. y-you are the sweetest boy I've met and i-i.. I-I really, really like you"

Austin slowly stopped messing with his sock and his face turned as red as mine. We both stayed in silence for over 5 mimutes.

My mind would not shut the fuck up. Kiss him! Tell him about his eyes! His tattoos! That smile! Hug him! Make out with him! Run away while you still can! Make sure you d-

"Why would you want to kiss me?" His stern voice made the voices hush as Austin looked at me with a serious look. Didn't expect a question from him so quickly.

"I-i... I-i think you're q-quite attractive.. h-honestly..." My voice sounded shaky but I had calmed down a little bit. At least he was still talking to me. For now.

"Hm.. Interesting..." He smirked and rubbed his chin slowly.

Leaning back and looking around his living room, Austin sat quietly with a smug look on his face.

**Austin's P.O.V.

So. Ethan wants to kiss me. I could tell he truly liked me from the moment he woke up from his feud with Brian. Darn he looked so adorable and peaceful when he was asleep though.

"A-Austin.." Ethan's quiet voice made me looked at him, trying to wipe the grin off of my face.

"Hm?" I blinked slowly before admiring his cute position he was in. His long faded out pink fringe matched the pink blush spread across his face. The way he sat so patiently for me to answer his confession made me want to kiss him and I knew I was probably driving him crazy with anxiousness.

"W-w... D-do you have anything t-to say back o-or..." Ethan's voice trailed off as he looked at my lips innocently. His shiny black canine bites looked really sexy on him as I looked at his lips eagerly. Now I really wanted to kiss him.

"Would it be alright if I-I..." I slowly stopped myself looking down and brought my hand over my mouth. What the hell is wrong with me? I-i shouldn't ask him something like that... Y-yet.. He said he wanted to.. what the hell should I do..

"Would w-what be alright?" Ethan asked, tilting his head slightly

"i-if I... k-k-kissed..... y-you..?" I looked back to him with a nervous smile. Oh god oh god please don't reject me oh god I brought you here for a reason please do not reject me

Ethan looked surprised yet I noticed the side of his mouth twitch. Was he smiling? Oh god maybe he was laughing at me, only pretending to like me as some sick joke.. fuck

"I wouldn't mind that at all, actually" His calm voice made me relax a little bit. Then again. Why was he so calm about this? Ethan seemed to always be a stuttering cutie pie but he seemed so... chill.. Not that this was my first time kissing a guy or anything but I felt extremly nervous. I would've assumed Ethan would have been nervous too.

"O-o-okay..." I nodded a little bit and looked down again, not sure what to do next. It had been a few years since I had last kissed someone so I wasn't sure how he wanted to do this thing.