The Escape

The Thought Of You(A darker turn)

I'd like to say you've crossed my mind from time to time, the image of you is still so bittersweet,yet always a blur. The thought of you oh how it burns in the back of my mind, as if it's some kinds of sign or maybe even a warning. It's a constant battle between letting you go or keep living a lie to give you my all. I hate the fact that no matter how hard I tryto cover it up, it bursts out when I hear or think your name, but what's even worse is I was foolish enough to think you felt the same way. Clinging on to whatever hope we might still have left, I'm reaching for you, as if you'd lend me your hand. Another foolish moment on my part,you just let me fall. Falling deeper and deeperin love for someone who will never love you back, oh what a perfectly painful way to kill yourself without actully dying.It's numbing yet stings all at once, maybe real dealth is better and worth it at this point. 

I thought it would be easier, give it a few months move on,but no. No it's years on years and still nothing. Stuck living and dreading in the past, it's over for you but it was never over for me. How was I so foolish, it was all an act, you never really cared.