Crazy about you [COMPLETE]

19- Have you ever been in love, Jimin?

«How long have they been together?» Yoongi asked, passing Jimin a plate to help him settle the table: he had just told him what had happened the previous day at the café and the rapper had grinned shaking his head.

«How long? I don't really know. When I first met Namjoon-hyung they were already a couple, so it's been at least three years. But, again, I don't really know it. That's not the kind of things they enjoy telling about.» he concluded, giggling, as he poured some ramen into the dishes.

«What do you mean?».

«Well ... they'd rather give away their sexual life than tell how and when they met.» the dongsaeng blushed childishly.

«You mean they are together just for the sake of sex?».

«No! Oh God, no! - Jimin yelped, as if the simple thought of it would be just crazy - They love each other. As far as I'm concerned, they might even be soulmates, you know? It's like ... the way they look at each other ... the way they deal with each other's presence ... ever since I met them, I've never doubted their relationship once.».

He looked up at Suga just to find out he was already gazing at him: his cheeks heated up and he simply went back to his ramen.

A slightly awkward silence fell among the two kids, as they both eat their meals without raising their heads from their plates.

Eventually, Suga was the one to break the silence.

«Have you ever been in love, Jimin?».

The kid froze: there it was, his chance to let the hyung know his feelings. It would have taken just three words.

"Not 'til now.".

But instead he just weakly shook his head and muttered "you?".

Suga looked away, his eyes spying on the kitchen furniture before finally speaking.

«I might have. I think so. I'm not really a love expert.».

Jimin swallowed hard: so he had been. Well, he might have. Anyway, he had felt for somebody the same things he was feeling for him.

He couldn't help but feel a bit sick: who was that person?

As if he had read the kid's mind, Suga spoke again, answering his silent question: «Her name is Eva. - he whispered, and as he looked up at Jimin, he couldn't help but a laugh at his surprised expression - Yes, a girl. You already knew I'm bi, kid, don't act so astonished.».

«I-I'm sorry.» Jimin muttered, as he began to collect the plates and load the dishwasher.

«Oh don't be. I'm aware it sounds quite weird of me.».

Eventually done with the table they headed upstairs, Jimin's head filled with questions about that part of his beloved's life he had never heard before.

Jimin guided him to his room and crawled onto the mattress; Suga immediately followed him, offering the kid his own shoulder for him to rest on, as they lied down side by side.

«I guess you want to ask something, don't you?» again Yoongi had managed to read him like an open book.

«I ... You mind telling me about it?» the dongsaeng proposed uncertainly.

Suga sighed and turned his head to the big window on the opposite side of the room -it was darkish outside, but he could still clearly recognise the silhouette of most of the highest buildings in the city.

It had been a nice day: Yoongi had arrived at Jimin's house around 4 pm and the two of them had spent the afternoon cuddling on the couch, hopping channels looking for anything barely interesting.
Fun enough, as soon as they had found a nice movie to watch, the kid had fallen asleep between his hyung's arms. For the first time in months, the rapper had felt sincerely happy.
But now ... thinking about Eva always made him feel sad.

«We were both 16 when we met, but we got together in our 17s. - he began - We've been a couple for almost a year. I was ... crazy about her, initially. After our breakup her family moved and I never heard about her again.».

«What happened?» Jimin couldn't help but ask, curiosity and jealousy burning together inside his tummy, as he tried to imagine how his hyung looked like when he was nothing more than a teenager like he himself was.

Yoongi sighed again, squeezing the kid's hand before actually saying something.

«I messed up. I was always busy. Between work and music, I barely had time to spend with her. When we got together, I tried my best to make her happy, but I was always tired since I used to spend most of my nights awake to work on my music in order to have free time to spend with her during the day. It was hard, but it worked for a while. Then one day she snapped, she yelled at me, saying she wasn't happy anymore, scolding me cause I had let things fall apart without even noticing. All I could do was look at her. In my mind, I had this great speech ready. I would have explained it all to her. I would have ... but when eventually she asked me if I had anything to say, I just looked at her, not saying a word. She just left. I felt like something inside had broken. I felt sick for days, then got angry at her, 'cause she had me feeling like that. I'm over this, now. I'm fine, but she made me realise what a horrible person I was. I had sworn myself I would have made her happy forever, but our relationship fell apart and I didn't even notice. - he blurted out, his voice unsteady, and he took a deep breath before continuing - That's why I haven't really asked you to be mine. I'm no boyfriend material, Jimin. Although I'd really love to, I'm afraid I'd mess things up again and the last thing I want is for you to suffer.».

The kid frowned, disappointed by those words, since he couldn't really get the point of them: he leaned forward, surprising his hyung with a tender, deep kiss.

When they broke off, they were both panting, a trail of saliva connecting their lips.

«I don't care.» Jimin whispered, his eyes burning in the other's.

«W-what do you mean?».

«I don't care if you are afraid. What's wrong with it? I'm just as scared as you are, Yoongi. This is the first time I feel these things for someone ... » he confessed in a whisper, his cheeks heating up.

Suga felt his stomach twitch.

Jimin had ... feelings for him.

He smiled softly, pressing their lips together again.

They started off kissing sweetly, hands tenderly cupping each other's faces as they enjoyed the other's proximity, but passion and desire quickly caught up, erasing their worries and turning the kiss into something completely different.

Soon enough, both of them were gasping for hair, fingers already bustling about each other's clothes.

When the last piece of clothing eventually fell on the floor, Jimin broke the kiss, pulling away to stare at his hyung with wide eyes.

Suga immediately panicked, though he did his best not to give it away.

«You alright, baby?» he whispered, rubbing his thumb against the kid's cheek, earning a tiny smile from him.

«I am. But I ... - he bit his bottom lip, looking away in embarrassment - I was kind of hoping we could do something different tonight.».

Yoongi let out a breath, chuckling in relief as he brushed his lips against Jimin's collarbone, licking his soft skin: «Such as?».

No answer came from the dongsaeng, and Suga forced him to make eye contact by cupping his face: «Don't be shy, Jiminie. Tell me about it.».

The kid's eyes fluttered shut, his cheeks turning bright red as he finally spoke up: «Fuck me. Fuck me, Yoongie. Please?».

Suga smirked, his cock twitching in interest at the request.

«Gladly, baby boy.» he purred, then kissed him again.