My True Love

Do I Like Girls?

A short while before Madi had told me that, I had started to question my sexuality. I started to have a little crush on a girl at school, her name was Hadlie. I tried to tell myself I was crazy, that I couldn't like her. Growing up Mormon, I'm not supposed to like girls. But I also didn't want to hide who I was. If this was really me, I wasn't going to hide it. I told my friends about my crush and they started asking me questions and labeling me. At that point I thought I was bi-curious, but I was still very unsure. That crush ended up fading, as crushes do, and I got another one. Well, two actually. I started to like my friend Chris, who I used to like back in 8th grade too. But, I also kind of started to have feelings for Madi. This is when things got very complicated for me. I thought I liked Madi, but I also thought maybe it was just because I didn't want to be alone and I knew she liked me. But I also liked Chris so I didn't know what to believe. I didn't tell anybody about any of my feelings for Chris or Madi, in fear of what they would think of me. I didn't want them labeling me or judging me when I wasn't even sure what it was yet...