melancholy - collection of poems

why?

Why do I have to put up with this?

Everyone, all of them, they don't suffer like me.

Why did this happen?

Do I deserve it?

Maybe.

Other people, they're happy with their lives.

I wish my life could be like theirs.

Their lives are perfect.

Not like mine.

•••

They always stare at me.

I don't know why.

I want to know but they won't tell me.

They say everything's fine.

I believe them.

But nowadays they act wierd.

Like they don't know me.

Like they don't want to know me.

I want to know why.

But they never tell.

•••

I'm broken.

I know I am.

But no one cares.

They ask me if I'm fine.

I say I am.

But I'm not.

'It's okay' I thought, 'they don't mean it anyways'

But sometimes, I wish they would.

•••

Why do I feel hurt?

Hurt that you left me.

You left me alone.

I didn't have anyone.

Only you could understand me.

You knew everything.

But you threw it all away.

I believed one day you will come back.

You said you will.

But you never did.

•••

Why don't you love me?

Why do I love you?

I need you.

I really do.

But it wasn't like that.

You thought I thought of you as a friend.

You know what?

I never did.

•••

It still hurts.

I wish this will all end.

I wish you will come back.

If you do, everything will be okay.

Please come back.

I miss you.

I needed you.

I loved you.

But why don't you come back?

I don't know why.

I wished I did.