I was feeling a little bit better after I cried, but it took me a while to fall asleep. I'm back to feeling super meh and down again though. I had just gotten to sleep at around 10 am, and my father came in and woke me up at about 1. He forced me to be outside and socialize with some of my family who was visiting. It honestly just made things worse. It was hot all day, and I was really irritable. I have more family coming up tomorrow and i'm just so stressed right now. I honestly just feel like crying again.
It's thundering pretty bad right now. It's really loud. It's stressing me out even more and i hate it. I can hear it through my headphones so it's even worse. I'm just stressed to the max and I don't know what to do. I just keep asking myself why I'm like this.
My friends are all having fun playing Town of Salem together and I could join them but I don't feel up to it. I can't push myself to do it and I don't know why. This week has been really bad for me and I just... is this what my life has come to now?
I was feeling so good when I was visiting my sister across country. I don't know why but things have plummeted since I've come home.
I don't know what else to say.
