My Forced Abortion

Lost

I don't know how to tell my mom that I'm pregnant! What am I going to do now? I'm freaking out! I'm in my fifth period computer class, and I just pick up my phone and I type out a message to my mom faster than my brain could comprehend what was happening, and I just press send without thinking. I regret that. My message said "Hey Mommy, I have something to tell you. I know that everybody is noticing my body undergo some changes, and I missed my period five months in a row."
My heart is pounding in my chest, it's pounding so hard that I hear it in my ears. My adrenaline kicks in giving me a mini anxiety attack. She replied faster than I thought she would. Her message said "Wynter are you pregnant?!" I felt a tear forming because this moment was getting so intense. Without further hesitation, I said "yes" I knew she was gonna kill me. That's why I was scared to tell her. She said " you're not keeping the baby Wynter, who is the father? Do you love him? Does he love you? Does he even know about the baby? You're too young for all of this." All of those questions made me feel weak. The answer to all of those questions is no. And I felt bad for wanting to bring a baby into this world without a father that loves it. But never in my mind did I say I wanted an abortion. I made a connection with my baby. I felt like I was no longer alone. I felt like a had someone that really needs me. Someone that gives me a reason to exist. After all, the baby did NEED me in order to survive. I didn't reply to her text because I couldn't. I was getting weak, and a cold, sad feeling grew inside of me. I had to put my phone down before I burst into tears.