Rant time

8/7/17

It's currently 7:16 pm and I'm at the laundry mat. Something I haven't done in a little more than 10 years, it's crazy how much has changed in the last month. My mom seems a lot happier now and I keep thinking I should come out. But I just get scared, I don't want her to be disappointed in me... idk

Lots of my prayers have been answered but I feel like with every prayer that gets answered, another problem comes. I don't know who's reading this but I bet you have your own issues, things that keep you up at night and things that make you lose hope.

I was diagnosed with depression 3 years ago and it hasn't been active, but lately I've been worn out and always tired. I just feel like staying in my room all day by myself. I was happy about the divorce and then I realized how many people I'm going to lose... I never realized how many people loved me until I started saying my goodbyes

I was at a concert at the park where I used to live and saw a lot of people I knew from school, and so many people jumped on top of me and hugged me. And the look on their faces when I told them I moved and won't be coming back to our old school made me want to cry.

I know I shouldn't be bitching right now because many people have it worse than I do but I can't help it...