I don't even know how to feel. Should I be mad? Sad? Hopeful? Distraught? I can't feel anything right now. I'm sitting at home in my living room all alone. It's been 4 days. I've had to go to school and hear people constantly asking questions like "Is she ok?" "Is she gonna be alright?" And to be honest...I don't even know the answer. I haven't seen her since Monday and it's Wednesday now. All I know is whoever that girl was that had the fucking nerve to try and kill my babygirl, if I see her I'm gonna kill her. Just seeing her body like that, lifeless, makes me feel so dead inside. She's the first girlfriend I've ever really loved.😔 And I might lose her...
My mom walks in and sees me sitting here staring at the floor.
"You ok baby?" She asks looking concerned.
"Yeah ma, I'm fine" I lie.
"Hunny don't lie to me😕" she says sitting next to me and wrapping her arms around me. I hug her back tightly and don't even realise I'm crying til I feel the wet tear drops on my arm.
"Baby don't cry. She'll be ok." My mom says wiping my tears.
I take a deep breath and nod my head.
"If you need me just let me know, ok?"
"Ok, thanks ma"
"No problem. I love you"
"Love you too" I reply.
I sit on the couch just thinking for a while then I decide to go to bed, hoping I'll feel better tomorrow.😒
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6:20 am
I wake up feeling exactly the same as I did yesterday😑But even worse cos now I just wanna go back to sleep...😭
I go into my bathroom and do my hygiene routine. I get out and pick out an outfit.
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I go downstairs to eat breakfast and see everybody already there.
"Good morning Myles" Blaze says.
"Morning" I mumble as I sit down.
I eat my breakfast in silence as everybody else has there conversations. When I'm done I put my plate in the sink and go and sit on the couch.
