I drove Babygirl back to her party with both happiness and a heavy heart. *I don't know how I'm gonna tell her I'm leaving. It will crush her..We are finally ready to do this, to be together, but my dumb ass had to go and move my business to the east coast. I can't fucking lose her. I Love Her. I need her." We arrive at the club and spend the rest of her birthday turning up. I take back to my house, she is a bit drunk lol. "DREUXXXXXX!! Babeeee come hereeee!!" I chuckle, she is so fucking loud and happy its adorable. "Mamii shut up you are so loud. Lol. Come on lets get you in bed. You need to sleep this off." I grab her waist to steady her and she wraps her arms around my neck. "I dont want to sleepppp. I want to fuck youuuu. I missed you, it has been so hard avoiding you all these monthssss. You and your sexy ass body!! I want youuuu!!" I chuckle louder. "It's not funny Dreuxxxx!!" I pick her up and throw her over my shoulder. "Why the fuck you come out the house with this little ass dress on." I say as I slap her ass. "CAUSE YOU LOVE IT!! I HAD TO MAKE YOU JEALOUS!!" I smile, her honesty and openness gives me an idea.
I sat her on my bed and she reaches for my belt buckle. I back up "No!! You are drunk and I'm not taking advantage of you." She is pouting like a two year old and it is fucking adorable. I kiss her forehead. "Mamii I'm not fucking you tonight. If you still want it in the morning you can take it." I am laughing and she is still pouting. *Damn I love her spoiled ass. Adorable ass big baby. I swear I want to spend my life with her. I want her to have my babies.* I shake my head at that last thought, we are still young and have plenty of time. *I'd be lying if I said I haven't thought about busting in her tight goodness QUITE a few times....SHIT she bad as fuck and she is all mine.* "DREUXXXX!!" I snap out of my thoughts and focus on her beautiful face. "Yes mamii??" I say as I take off her heels and unzip her tiny ass dress. I roll my eyes, I could kill her for going out in this tiny ass thing. She lucky she is the most adorable ass drunk girl I've ever seen.
"I want you Dreux, its been soooo long." I laugh. "I just gave you some dick yesterday morning." She exhales loudly. "That was a whole day agoooo!!" I smile. *Her freaky ass, I love her.* "I told you, if you still want it in the morning you can take it lol. No dick for you until you are sober. You can sleep here and I will be on the couch." She grabs my hands. "Dreux please..don't leave me.." She says in a barely audible whisper. My heart breaks a little hearing her voice with so much sadness. *I swear she knows me better than anyone. A part of her knows I am leaving I can feel it.* "I heard you..talking to Chez about it..I don't want you to go..you can't leave me..who will protect me?? Who will love me?? I don't know what I would do if I lost you Dreux. I Love you. You were my first kiss, my first crush, my first love....you took my virginity Dreux..I can't even imagine my life without you. I don't want to.."
*This is why I love her. She just knows. She knows me better than I know myself. FUCK!! I screwed up. There is no undoing what I've done. I have to go now, for work....SHIT..* I sit on the bed and pull her into my lap. I stroke her hair and kiss her forehead. There is nothing I can say to make her feel better. Fuck!!..How bad I wish I could make her feel better. To tell her not to worry, but I cant. So I will hold her until she falls asleep.* So I do, I hold her all night. The next morning I wake up and she isn't there. I'm upset, I don't know where she is. Then I remember last night and how she knows I am leaving. I sigh and hold my head in my hands. "Whats wrong??" She asks as she lifts my head and holds it. I wrap my arms around her legs, pulling her close and resting my head on her stomach. I just hold her, wishing I could go back & redo everything. From the very beginning....
