Guilt ~ A Linstead FF

Chapter 2

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<< Erin's POV >>

I deny his call and slowly start walking towards the car. I automatically start driving to Molly's, the home of District 21 and Firehouse 51. As I reach the bar, I see a crying Jay in front of the building. I get out of my car and rush over to him.

<< Jay's POV >>

"Erin?" I half-whisper as I see her running towards me with an extremely worried look on her face.

~~Flashback end~~

<< Erin's POV >>

"Jay? Why are you crying? What's wrong?" I say.
"It's..it's nothing really..just the thought of not being able to see you everyday and work with you makes me really sad. I don't think I would be the same..Hell, not even the unit is gonna be the same without you..I'm sorry, I'm just being really selfish right now. I only care about me I guess. " I hear him say.
"Jay, it's normal to feel like that, I remember how hard it was for me to move to the task force, I really missed working with the guys and I even missed Platt's sarcastic comments whenever we came into the district!" I say as we both laugh; "And you know what kept me going? Being with you. I just felt like I was able to express my feelings when I was with you, I would tell you about my day and about my selfish boss, Lang. I was able to tell you what I liked and what I hated about the job, but that all made me realize that it wasn't right for me. Intelligence was meant for me. District 21 was meant for me. Being a detective was meant for me. After all, I realized Chicago was meant for me. I can't leave. But I can't stay either. Chief Lugo and the rest of the Ivory Tower made a decision. I go or Intelligence goes. And I think I made the right choice. I can't live with the fact that I ruined the life of 7 other people just to save my own ass because of a mistake I made. I don't know, but maybe there's something I could do to save Intelligence and still be in the unit. I really don't know."
"Well..I don't know what to say,but I do have to correct you with one thing."
"And what's that?"
"You moved UP to the task force. Remember, there's a silent 'up' there." says Jay, bringing a smile to both of our faces.
"But there's one thing that I miss from back when I was at the task force." I say.
"Oh yeah? And what's that?"says Jay, smirking.
"This" I say while leaning in, only to be interrupted by a drunk Ruzek.
"Oh,umm... I'm sowwy, did I..umm inte-*hiccup*-ruppt sumthin?"
"You're drunk, buddy. Get a cab and go home" says Jay while handing Adam a couple bucks for a ride back home.
"Yh, I will but not without a goodbye hug from Erin!"
"Umm..sure,I guess?" says Erin while giving Adam a hug.
"Let's go in, people have been waiting for you to come" says Jay, but I barely understand what he's trying to say because of Adam screaming 'TAAAXI!'
"Molly's, here I come"