Guilt ~ A Linstead FF

Chapter 3

<< Erin's POV >>

Jay wanted me to go inside Molly's, and I was scared of the people's reaction; I was supposed to come 1 hour ago, and I disappointed every cop from Intelligence, every firefighter from Firehouse 51, even Will came to the so-called 'goodbye party' . I don't know why, because me and Jay aren't together anymore and I'm not a very good friend of Will either. As I enter the bar, I feel every single pair of eyes looking at me and everyone is silent. I realise that coming into the bar was a bad idea and I reach for the door. I barely even touch the handle as I feel a hand on my arm and Jay pulls me into a big hug. People start clapping and cheering and I hear Herrmann saying "Speech, speech,speech" along with the rest of the people. I nervously scratch the back of my head, not knowing what to say.
"Thank you guys for being here, I only expected 10 people or so, not the whole Chicago" I say,laughing " I don't even know why you would come to say goodbye to me, I'm not even that good of a detective an-" I can't even finish my sentence, because Hank interrupts me.
"Kid, you are the best detective I've ever worked with and even better of a person. I don't know why you don't speak highly of yourself, you always underestimate when it comes to you and believe me, you ain't going nowhere with that kind of thinking. You are one of the greatest people I've ever met, and other people can say that as well, we all love you and we will miss you so badly, I am pretty sure Jay is gonna be so messed up, he'll take a trip to New York when a few days pass without seeing you." says Voight chuckling. "We hope you'll have a better experience in New York, and one last thing. Don't look back"
Hank's speech was so emotional, I saw tears in Jay's eyes, as well as Kim's. I am gonna miss them so much, I hope the part with Jay coming to NY was true. Then I saw a smile on everyone's faces, I couldn't resist. "Awww, come here you guys" I say as I pull Kim and Jay into a hug. They were the people that always helped me, they were there for me when Nadia died- correction- was murdered by that psychopath, Yates.
"You know, when I was younger" I start and feel Voight's eyes on me. "I thought I won't have any friends, except those ex-cons or junkies. When Hank took me in, I knew my life was going in a different place. I then discovered it wasn't who I am. I was meant to put the bad guys away, not hang out with them. I didn't realize it until I had something to compare to. Camille and Hank were some amazing people, I thank them everyday and I wish Camille was here, she would be so happy. I want to thank everyone at 21, you all made my life better. The guys from the firehouse, if I wouldn't have known you, I wouldn't even be here and you all would miss this.. 'AMAZING' speech. It is all because of you. Thank you everyone. You all made my life better." I finish my speech and hear everyone clapping really loud. I start feeling tears in my eyes and I fall onto the floor and I feel the cold wall,giving me chills. I see Hank pulling me up and hugging me, as if nothing happened. "It's okay, kid. Even tough guys cry sometimes." I hear him say.

Sorry guys, I haven't updated in a while, I've been a bit busy but I'll try my best and update as soon as I can. I'm sorry if the chapters are short but like I said, I'm a horrible writer and this is my first book. Thanks!