You & I

chapter 1

it's august 3rd.

that means in about nine days, ill be starting high school.

nothing makes me more nervous than the thought of getting lost in a huge school surrounded by people i dont know.

mom said we need to get school supplies.

this is the only step into the school year i like.

it's like starting fresh with brand new things.

so clean and organized.

we go to the store.

but my mom doesn't get that she has no idea what so ever of what i need.

i rather shop with my dad.

he's more understanding.

he gets it.

my mom gets mad so easily.

sometimes i swear she's crazy.

kenzie and i both agree to go to registration together.

we are absolute bestfriends.

attached at the hip all summer long.

it's mostly because we are both so weird and obsessed with music.

we have been spending the last days we have of summer together.

we are both terrified.

people say it's not that bad but everyone's different.

what if i have a meltdown and cry?

that would be so embarrassing.

im just glad that the fist day is just for the freshmans.

thank goodness.

ive been spending most of the summer with my boyfriend too.

his name is sam.

we have been dating since april 8th.

so quiet a while if you ask me.

but, the thing is.

he's going into eighth grade.

he's a year younger than me.

so we decided at the end of the summer we would break up.

but.

ive fallen so madly in love with him.

i don't want it to end.

i mean, i guess we could always get back together when he gets to highschool.

but it wouldn't be the same.

what if he's dating someone at the time?

what if he's already in love with another girl?

i would be crushed.

im just scared we will stop talking forever.

i guess it might be the right thing though.

summer don't end.

i can't loose sam.

so far we hangout at the park or the pool.

we have gone to the zoo a couple times.

it's kinda crazy of how much you can love another person in such a short period of time.

ive fallen head over heals for him.

yea i know what you're thinking.

"she's only 14 how could she know what love is?"

but love is when you feel like you should put someone else before you.

when you care more about how they're doing than yourself.

it's just a hard concept to explain.

if it's real.

you'll never feel that same way with anyone else.

i hate the feeling.

don't end summer.

don't let me lose sam.