You & I

chapter 12

it's almost summer.

harry and i have been together for such a long time.

but we keep fighting.

it makes me sad sometimes and I get worried.

I love him and I can't loose him.

I wake up on a sunny warm may morning.

I get in the shower and take forever under the hot water.

I get out and pick out pale blue jean high wasted shorts and a daisy pattern crop top and get dressed.

I have no energy today.

for some reason im so depressed.

I let my hair dry and brush through my soft straight long hair.

I put on some cover up and mascara.

I don't even know what's wrong with me today.

harry texts me.

harry: hey babe. pick you up in 10?

me: works for me

i brush my teeth and put my rings and bracelet on.

i grab my bag and a piece of gum and walk outside to see harry sitting in his truck.

i hop in and buckle my seatbelt.

"hey you look cute today." i say to him while giving him a kiss.

"as do you babe." he replies back to me.

i pick up his phone "can I pick some tunes?"

"go for it" he says putting in the password.

i look at his phone.

it's opened to his messages.

there's some between him and a girl courtney.

i read through them and see them calling eachother cute and such.

my heart sinks.

seriously?

i pause and drop his phone.

"what? what's wrong?" he says looking at me confused.

"so who's courtney?!" i say with a tear sliding down my cheek.

i unbuckle my seatbelt and put my foot over the break.

i unlock the truck and get out.

i run all the way home.

why does he keep doing this to me?

i run inside balling.

"what's wrong hunny?!?!" my mom asks me.

"mom! mom! i can't do this anymore. harry. i think he's cheating on me. mom my heart. it hurts so bad." i reply falling on the ground.

i cry so hard everything turns black and i pass out.

i hear my mom and my sister talking and i open my eyes.

im in a hospital.

my mom looks at me a grabs my hand "hey kiddo you ok?"

i laugh and look back at her "no."

my sister looks at my mom and says "give us a minute."

my mom leaves the room and dakota shuts the door.

"harry is here.." she says pointing to the door.

"oh yea? well make sure you tell him i rather not see him."

she walks outside and I hear harry "no no no! i have to see her!"

he barges in.

"get out." i say covering my face with a pillow.

"no. not until you talk to me." he says sitting on a chair and pulling it to my hospital bed.

"fine. hi harry! how's courtney?" i say sarcastically.

i add to it "oh wait! i don't care! leave." i say starting to cry.

"demi im sorry i dont know why i did it."

he says looking ashamed.

"is it because i wouldn't have sex with you?!" i ask in a loud voice.

"I don't know..I mean I guess." he says.

i start balling.

"so you did cheat on me. wow. you're unbelievable. get out now!" i say screaming.

he walks out and my mom runs in.

"mom i cant do this anymore. im done."

the doctor comes in and takes a few tests on me.

he walks in with the results on his clipboard and says to us "so it seems as if demi has been diagnosed with severe depression."

my mom sits down and asks "what do we do?" while looking at the doctor.

"we have medication we would like her to take every morning." he says handing her the slip.

"it seems as if she has also sprained her left wrist from falling." the doc adds.

the doctors comes in with a spleen and a black brace for my wrist and then we are ready to leave.

i get my own clothes on and grab my phone.

it's dead.

we get to walgreens to get my meds.

i stay in the car, it's too embarrassing to go in.

we get home and i go straight to my room.

i plug my phone in and put on my pajamas.

this stupid wrist braces' velcro gets stuck on my shirt.

my phone turns on and I had 10 messages from harry, 17 from kenz, 12 from megan, 7 from london, and 14 from sibria.

they all say they've heard what happened.

all harrys say is that he's sorry.

but at this point i don't care what he has to say.

my mom comes up with water, hot cheetos, and my stupid pill.

she hands me the pill and water.

i scoff.

"do I have to mom?" i say rolling my eyes.

"yes. you need it." she says pushing the water cup towards me.

i take the pill and put the water down.

"im sorry i never noticed or payed attention.." my mom says crying.

i sit up and hold her "no no no mom it's not your fault it just everything."

i wipe her tears away and hug her.

she gives me a kiss and hands me my remote to watch netflix and shuts the door.

i lay in bed eating hot cheetos and watching catdog on netflix.

this has been the worst day ever.

i hate love.

i hate boys.

i want to hate harry but at the same time i love him.

why?

ugh. this day is stupid.