DIRTY DIANA [ Paused ]

Connected Forever

So This Is Where It All Started , This Is Where Me And Egypt Started This Hustle Life ,

Lucky Showed Us All The Money We Can Get , And We Were In No Position To Turn Down Money

That Very First Night With Lucky Was ... Crazy... He Really Turnt Us Out.
He Showed Us Our Room , Which Was Basically A Basement At The Top Of The Building . There Was A King Size Bed On The Floor , And A TV Mounted On The Wall.  Off To The Side Was Two Fans . There Were No Windows.

Welcome Home Ladies , Make Yourselves Comfortable , Daddy Will Be Right Back

Daddy ? Who He Think He Is ... I Turned To E , And She Was Crying . I Started To Hate When She Cried .

I Pulled Her To The Bed , We Sat In The Middle Of Lucky's Dirty Old Mattress And Just Looked At Each other . I Spoke First ...

I'm Sorry E , I Didn't Know Any Of This Was Gonna Happen , The Guns , Lucky ... I Just Thought We Can Get Some Quick Cash ... Look I'll Tell Him I'll Stay , If You Want You Can Leave.  I Don't Want Anything To Happen To You. If You Stat I Promise To Always Protect You And Take Care Of You .

By This Time I Was Crying Too . More Because I Was Scared.  I Had No Idea What To Do , But I Couldn't Let Egypt See Me Weak . I Was Suppose To Be The Strong One ,

I'll Stay D... I Don't Want You To Do This Alone ... But How Do I Know You Won't Leave Me Like My Own Mama Did ...

I Got Up Off The Mattress And Went Into The Bathroom , Looking In The Cabinets And Drawers , And I Finally Found What I Was Looking For

Come Here E !

We Both Stood In The Bathroom Looking At The Razor In My Hand . Her Eyes Got As Big As Saucers

What The Hell You Gonna Do With That Diana !

I'm Gonna Make Sure We're Bonded By Blood , I'm Going To Connect Us Forever ! I Will Never Leave You . You Trust Me , And I Trust You

I Cut A Slit On My Finger And Drops Of Blood Appeared On My Fingertips , I Sliced E's Finger And Placed My Finger On Hers.  I Held It There For Almost 2 Minutes , Whole Time We Just Looked At Each Other. 

We Went Back To The Mattress & Layed Next Each Other

What Do You Think Is Going To Happen To Us ... I'm Kinda Scared

I Don't Even Know E , All I Do Know Is I'm Glad I Met You . .

We Layed In Silence For What Seemed Like Forever ....

Now I Know You Don't Wanna Talk About Your Family And What Your Running From But I'll Tell You Why I'm Here ....

My Dad Killed My Momma ...

My Dad Had Had A Drinking Problem And Mama Was Having An Affair With The Neighbor Jackson . Jackson Was This Puerto Rican Man , And I Honestly Think My Mom Was In Love With Him.  My Daddy Couldn't Take It And He Just Came In One Morning And Shot Her In The Face , I Was Standing Right Next To Her , I Was Told That He Went Next Door And Shot Jackson Too

All This Happened Last Week , Child Protective Service Tried To Take Me And My Little Sister Danielle ... She's 5 ... But I Heard What Happens In Those Homes For Unwanted Kids , So I Ran .... Now I Need To Get My Shit Together so I Can Get Danielle Back

I Looked At Egypt , We Both Silently Let Our Tears Fall ....

Just At This Moment I Knew E Would Never Leave My Side And I Would Never Leave Hers.

She Then Told Me Her Story, How Her Mother Was Never There , Because She Was On Drugs , She Slept With So Many Men , And Left Her With Her Big Sis Royalty . She Even Told Me How She Felt A Piece Of Her Was Missing , She Had A Identical Twin Brother But He Died When Her Mom Gave Birth . How She Felt Every Person In Her Life Was To Hurt And Leave Her .

We Both Vowed To Never Leave The Other , And Fell Asleep Holding Hands