My southern county boy

Chapter 16

Blake's POV:
I woke up with puffy eyes and regrets. So, I continued to walk. I decided it was time for me to start a new life far away where no one would be reminded of the hurt I caused. I have never felt guilt like this in my entire life. Even that time when I pushed Anna out of a tree.

Flashback:
Anna:
Mom! *crying* Blake P-P-pushed me out of a T-T-tree! I hurt my elbow! *sniffle*

Blake:
I didn't mean to Mom it just sorta happened. I didn't mean for her to get hurt.

Mom:
Blake! You have a duty as an older brother to love and protect Anna until the day you die. She is hurt because of you now go mull that over in your room, and no TV for a week!
Come on Anna let's get some ice on that elbow...
End flashback

Aria's POV:
I woke up hoping it was all just a dream but the tear caused mascara stains on my face and pillow reminded me of reality. I should hate Blake he is the reason Calvin took off and got in the accident, but I can't I just miss him. I decided I was ready to face him, the pain of not seeing him was just too much on top of the loss of my brother. So I put myself together and walked over to Blake's house. I walked in through the back hearing the all too familiar sound of the screen door as Erica, Blake's mom, met me on the porch. "Have you seen Blake?" I asked her. "Not since yesterday, I thought he was with you?" She replied. My heart sank. Where was he? "Well let's call him" I said pulling out my cell phone and tapping his name in my contacts. As I held it up to my ear and it began to ring I heard a quiet vibration from inside. I slid the screen door open and on the counter was Blake's Phone with my name and a picture of us flashing on the screen. Something wasn't right, and Erica knew it too.
Erica called everyone to the kitchen and asked if anyone knew where he was, I ran to my house and did the same. Through all the hurt of the loss of Calvin my family still was worried about the whereabouts of Blake. My mom and dad took the car and went east  down the road while Erica and Steve, Blake's dad, went west. Anna went to check the barns and Jason checked the park and other popular hang out places. Elise took Rusty around our family's combined 60 acres of land. I ran to the barn with Anna and jumped on Dixie and took off to our spot, Blake had to be there, he just had to.
When I got to our spot I felt sick because Blake wasn't there. This wasn't right where was he, where's my Blake?!?! My stomach churned and I fell off Dixie and puked. This was all to real. My big brother and now my boyfriend, gone. I got sick again. My life was falling apart. Getting sick again. My eyes teared, my head filled with so much pressure I thought it was going to explode, my mind complete fog, and then nothing. It was like an overload like my emotions just gave out. I was walking on a cloud and everything was numb. I walked to the edge of the water and looked down at myself, I was unrecognizable. My eyes were so shallow it was like the sadness has just consumed them. I leaned farther forward to the pond to get a better look at my reflection, farther, farther, farther, splash. Down I sunk into the pond I've swam in so many times. Looking around me in the darkness the water was the depression consumed me, and I let it. I didn't kick my feet or thrash my arms I just sank deeper and deeper to the bottom of the pond completely numb. Everything hurt but I felt no pain. And as I felt the muddy floor beneath my back I realized my life wasn't worth the pain losing me would cause my family. We already lost two, a third is unnecessary. So I kicked off the ground shooting myself to the waters surface, my lungs  burning with the thirst of oxygen. My face broke the surface and the sweet taste of air over whelmed my senses. I will not give up today.