Sleepwalking // xBayani [ON HOLD]

prologue

I often happen to remove myself from social interaction. It’s not, so to say, my “least favorite” thing, but it has to happen. I am a human, so I have to participate in it. It’s an easy requirement, yet I despise it with all of my well being. And while I am known by how ever many people, I don’t enjoy talking to any of them… at least, in real life.

There is an exception for three people, actually.

My sister, Karissa, my neighbor, Jadlynn, and my girlfriend, Emily.

Surprising, right? Despising social interaction yet obtaining a girlfriend? I agree, it’s so odd, but I somehow charmed her and now we’re a thing.

On another note- going to bed for me is difficult in sorts, I have insomnia. I can hardly sleep, even with the things that make me sleep. It’s completely rare when I sleep, but I do.

Every night that I do fall asleep, I sleepwalk. It’s not necessarily a choice, you see. I mean, yes, I can occasionally control when I sleepwalk, but not where I go when I do so. There’s this thing called Lucid Dreaming, and a lot of the time I have the ability to achieve a level of this that I can control what I do when I’m asleep. Most times I use it to control my dreams, it turns into a horrible nightmare. Most people who can lucidly dream let themselves fly, or dream that their interest would fall back in love with them, or maybe even dream of fame and fortune. But I let myself sleepwalk.

I don’t have the mindset that says, “This is a dream. I can control it now. I can do whatever I want.” Nah, my mind automatically says, “Let’s get up. Walk, run, dance, just don’t wake up.”

My mind is odd like that, but that’s how it is.

My only question though...

When could you never control your own self?