Hey Wonder

Aftermath (Pt.1)

Yuzuru

How did it suddenly get to the point of me, resulting with this kind of choice?

"Yuzu, I'm going to ask you one more time before I pass this to the JSF," I heard my mother's voice turn soft as she took my hands. "Are you sure about this?"

Without hesitance, I answered what my mind had been probably wanting to say. "Yes, mom. I am."

Well I thought I was -- until now.

It wasn't visible, but I'd prefer to think that a hint of disappointment was there in her heavy sigh. I took it as a sign of defeat in convincing me to reconsider, a very familiar sign I get from people who once had tried to go against my thoughts and my decisions but only to end up with a failed result.

We went outside the house and escorted my mother to the front gate. It was noon and the sun was set high, releasing that kind of heat I had never even liked once in my life.

"I'll go out now. Try walking outside to ease your thoughts?" she suggested, putting a warm smile behind her facade I was too familiar with.

"I'll try. Take care!" I bid her off goodbye until her figure started to get farther so I decided to go back inside the house.

I plopped against the couch, appreciating the coolness of the air-conditioning with all the hot weather outside. Although I was satisfied with the temperature, I felt uneasy as if it wasn't cold enough to give me frostbites. All those years of skating sure made me like this.

I quickly went up and shook my head. I shouldn't think further about it. I need to do something to take my mind off of some things.

Getting the remote control from the glass table infront of me, I turned on the television only to regret it sooner than I'd expected.

I was in all sorts of news channel and they were broadcasting about me, all at the same time that I wasn't able to find a decent show despite of searching. Well this is starting to tick me off.

Is the universe trying to mock me or what?

I turned it off and placed the remote beside me. I never really liked the media prying over every single thing I do like some celebrity. Pretty much, the infamous line 'I did not sign up for this' will be the proper phrase to describe it.

Few minutes past and I was starting to get bored. Yuzuru Hanyu is in need of great distraction.

I grabbed my yellow tissue box friend, Pooh from his comfortable position by the desk. Right now he lacks the main thing, the reason of his existence: tissues. But I'm too lazy to refill him and it's not like I'm going to be needing a lot of tissues anymore.

Remember, Yuzu? You decided to q--

"Really!" I shouted, ruffling my hair in annoyance. My mind doesn't know how to stop!

Lying on the couch, I banged my head continuously, desperate to get rid of my whole system that was trying to eat me up.

Regret is definitely worse than any kind of feeling I experienced before. And I've had worse.

Losing my mind, I buried my head on a pillow nearby and stayed like that for a couple of minutes. I was finally gaining some peace of mind when it was interrupted by the sound of the door's lock click open.

"I'm home!" A familiar voice made me turn to look towards the door. "Saya? Why are you early?"

"It's supposed to be 'welcome home sister!' but guessing how you look such a complete mess right now, I wouldn't bother." Saya said as she placed the paper bag in the coffee table infront of me. "Eat up."

Curiosity made me look into the bag, only to find a couple tubs of ice cream and a small carton filled with rice cakes. "But I just ate lunch..." Mumbling, I take all of the food outside its paper bag.

"Don't worry, you won't get indigestion over those. I know you're such a picky eater, but I also know you can't simply deny the presence of this ice cream in the middle of this insanely hot season." Saya's speech was undoubtedly fast that I almost thought she might be out of breath after that. But who am I kidding, she's more loud than me.

I took out the little wooden spoon that comes out from the ice cream tub and dig in. Saya joined me later on after changing clothes and started to eat her own ice cream too.

"So," she started off, "did you really tell mom you were going to quit?

Just like that, my sister decided to drop the bomb.

I didn't put out the spoon in my mouth as I tensed a bit. It was the topic I never wanted to address just minutes ago. So instead of answering, I scooped another one and let the ice cream melt in my mouth.

I'd rather avoid that question because I know Saya will understand. She was the first person I ever told of my decision before anyone else.

"Don't want to talk about it?" Saya said before placing the tub of ice cream in the glass table. "Fine. Let's just spend the afternoon playing Mario Kart."

"But don't you have work?" I asked after cleaning up and putting the paperbag aside. "You didn't really answered me earlier."

She sighed and turned her head towards me. "I took the day off, okay? I just miss being able to have the time to play and not think about anything else. Adulthood just sucks." Saya replied as she set up the game.

"And apparently, I miss spending time with you. Are you aware that you were much more busier than me who even works full-time?"

I could only look away towards the window because I couldn't agree less. I pretty much missed out 1/4 of my life due to the career I chose and unfortunately couldn't have enough time with them.

"It's better to spend the whole day cooling off of some things, Yuzu. Because after you've calmed down, you'll be ready to give it a thought. That's how you always were, weren't you?" My sister said as she sat beside me on the couch. She didn't waste a time for my awkwardness so she continued.

"Likewise, just try your best in beating me at Mario Kart. I'm guessing you've probably lost your skills now." Saya said with a provoking tone I find hard to resist.

I grinned and shook off all the unnecessary thoughts in my head. My sister's right, I was too pressured in trying to ignore that topic so I didn't realize I could've just relaxed and calmed down.

Smirking, I decided to grab the game console from the table and decided to sit the most comfortable sit I have ever done in my life.

"Just so you know, I'm not easily backing out on this one. And no, I don't think I lost my gradeschool skills yet."

My sister gave a warm smile and pressed the start button. "Game on!"

Thank you, Saya.

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A/N: I know it's short but don't ya worry, I will update the pt.2 soon~!

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