Broken

Cuts, Cuts, and More Cuts

--------(Maddie's pov)-------

It has been 2 weeks since the incident. I just can't take it. Everyone thinks that I slept with Harry Rogers and Carl Jonson. I didn't though! They just kept spreading rumors and now people think I'm a dirty slut. I woke up this morning, after crying myself to sleep last night, feeling awful. I am starting to push everyone out. I have cuts on my arm and thigh from where I took a razor to them. It makes me feel so much better that I decided to do it again this morning. I took out my razor and started to cut my left wrist. I knew I would regret it later, once people start noticing, but I didn't care. I cut my wrist about 6 times. It felt good. I started to cry. No one understands me. No one listens. I may be quiet but I scream night and day yet no one seems to hear. it is almost time for school so I have to get up and get ready. I put on a blue hoodie that is too long for me, in an attempt to hide the marks. usually I wear short shorts but today I settled for long skinny jeans. I went to school and kept getting tormented. All day I got notes  that said stuff like, 'go away slut' 'go kill yourself' 'No one wants you here' or 'thanks for ruining the image of girls in the eyes of boys'. People are so mean. It was finally lunch time but, Lilly wasn't at my locker like she always was. I decided she must have just been very hungry so I put my stuff away and headed to the cafeteria. I looked at our table and noticed only Nick was there. I started walking towards the table but stopped when people started screaming things at me like 'slut' 'what are you doing here' and they were telling there friends 'stay away from that slut' and 'I don't want her near my boyfriend she might try to sleep with him'. Nick noticed me and gave me a smile but I turned and bolted out of the cafeteria. I tried to run to the bathroom and hold in my sobs but they erupted out of me and I fell in the middle of the hallway. I just sat there crying into my arms wishing I had an escape.

   ------(Lilly ' s pov)-------

Today was hard. I didn't like leaving Maddie to cope with things on her own but what was I gonna do. I didn't want to face the crowds so I just pretended sick and stayed home. I knew I would have to face them at some point I just thought the whole slut thing would die out. I knew I would get bored so after my parents took my sister to daycare and went to work I decided to call some friends to keep me company. I called Jack and Jill over. They came over and they didn't want to deal with the whole thing either. I wonder how Nick is doing because I had called him too but he wanted to go help Maddie. I wanted to also trust me but, as perky as I may seem, I don't do well in the face of humiliation.  Jack, Jill and I were playing cards right now.

"Uno!" Jill exclaimed as she put down her card in the stack.

"Oh man, how come she always wins?" Jack complained.

"Because I'm good," Jill answered with a chuckle, "What's wrong Lilly? you seem down,"

"Oh, nothing.. it's just.... I'm worried for Maddie... She doesn't take criticism very well. remember the time I didn't like her dress? she completely fell apart at that and now... I feel.... I feel like I abandoned her," I confessed.

"Don't feel bad. She is a big girl now she can handle herself," Jack said.

" And besides she has Nick there," Jill blurted.

"Ya, I... I guess your right," I said.