A Pure Love

Chapter 6

   I want to say that this morning is just like any other morning. The usual feeling of ice cold air, running down my spine, as I struggle to get out of bed and release my dreams. But, it just isn't like any other day. It is so different, and as odd as this sounds, I actually want to get out of bed, I want to let go of my dreams, and I want to get back on the halls of the school. Because all I want to see are those blue oceans, that make me feel calm, those strong arms, that make me feel protected and that personality, that in any other social situation would make me run for the hills, but in this universe, somehow, makes me want to get as close as possible.
    This guy attracts me like a moll to the brightest light, and in the end I'm afraid that I am going to burn myself.
    The sound of Laura's car is loud and clear, she is waiting for me to get in the car as soon as possible, and I will probably have to get through her expertise on our way to school.
    "Hey, Nessa. What's up?"
  Her cheery voice echoes through the car.
    "Well, nothing much. How was your day off?" I ask, with as less sarcasm as possible, in my voice.
    But I just can't help my eyebrow that just arches to the sky and beyond.
   "It was actually pretty terrible. My horrible headache would not leave me and let's just not talk about the sickness that I still feel. But...that's not why we are here today. We are here to talk about what is going on between you and Edward. And don't even try to deny it."
    "You know? You are right! That's not why we are here today. We are here today, to have a peaceful ride to school."
    "Ok. So I don't want to sound like that pushy best friend. But for real though. If you don't spill the beans right now, I will drive in the forest and get the informations out of you somehow."
    "Yeah... that's alright. First of all, you don't sound like a pushy friend at all. You sound like a psycho one. And secondly, why are you still thinking that there is something between us? Where does that come from."
     "Nessa. Why won't you tell me anything? I am your best friend. And for real now? So many people saw that scene in the parking lot the other day."
    "Because I don't even know what's going on. Ok?!"
   "What do you mean you don't know what's going on?"
    "I mean I don't know what is going on. Now can we please change the subject?"

    The day was normal, way to normal. Nothing special happened, and I didn't see him all day. Which is so weird since I had 2 classes with him today. My chest kind of hurts thinking of some horrible things that could have happened to him, and bring us to this moment of the day. With each day passing I am growing more and more attached to him, I am sure that this won't lead to a happy ending. But I just can't help it, it is not my choice, it's my heart's choice.

    The best thing right now for me will only be the smell of old and dusty books from the library. It's the only thing that will help me escape this world of pain and worries.

    The desk that I am staying at is very old and seems to be spreading this old wood essence in the air. And the book couldn't start more perfect then with this quote: "Just for once I wanna be somebody's first choice."
    You know that feeling that you get when you start reading a really good story and you loose touch with the real world? Well if you don't know it, then let me explain to you, how scarry it is when someone's hands cover your eyes out of nowhere! My heart legitimately sank to my stomach.        And I tried to push his hand away, but they wouldn't bulge, his grip even tightened.
    "Take your hands of me! Who are you?"
    "Oh sweetheart, you already forgot me?" Edward said in a mocking tone. And I could finally let out the air out of my lungs. He then let me see again and walked in front of me, siting on a chair, and somehow making the table look really small, compered to what it looked like when I was sitting here alone.
    "Where have you been all day?" I said, trying not to sound noisy, but knowing me, I am sure it sounded weird....
    "There were some problems that nedded my attention" he answered me in a dismissive manner. Like there was nothing serious about it.
That answer wasn't enaugh for me, I was curios for more. What kind of problems needed his attention? What could have been so important that he had to skip a hole day of school? But after all, who am I to ask him such things? I shouldn't have asked him anything in the first place. I am surprised that he answered though...
   "Hey! Are you still here?" He asked me waving his hand from left to right before my eyes.
   "Yeah....kind of."
   "What is it? Did something happen?" He asked me actually concerned about me. Well that's a new one.
   "No, everything is fine." I said, and I can see in his eyes that he knows I am hiding something. But he didn't ask anything more. And I am so thankful for that, I really am not in the mood for such a conversation, and plus we still don't know where we are, well at list I don't know.
   We stayed a bit more just looking at each other and with every minute passing by I can feel more and more how bad I am going to regret the fact that I am giving in to him, when will reality hit me in the face to make me realise this boy is not even close to what I need in my life? But the bigger question is, when will he realise that he is probably loosing his time right now and is staying with me when he could be out with someone that likes to go to parties and dance and in general someone that is just better then me?
   "Let's get you out of here!" He suddenly says and grabs my forearm, starting to drag me through the library.
   "What? Where? Right now?"
   "Yes right now. And it wouldn't be a surprise if I told you, now would it?"
   "Well no, it wouldn't be a surprise anymore, but at least I would now that you aren't taking me in the forest to kill me!"
   "Well, I guess we will never know then" he says while he is still draging me through the school, going straight to the parking lot.
   "You know, I can walk. You don't need to drag me every time we go somewhere."
   "Yeah, but after the few encounters we had,  I am not taking any chances of loosing you half way to the car. You have slipped through my fingers way too many times and this is never going to happen again."
   "Will see about that..." I muttered in such a low voice, to be sure that he can't here me, but somehow fate is not with me today.
   "Just try it. It's always fun to carry you to our dastination and we both know that I run faster than you so, why bother trying in the first place?" He said with a huge grin on his face that I could not see but I can for sure feel.
   How I wish to find out a way to wipe that grin of his face every time I see it.
   I just sigh and get in the car. No need to argue with him. He is just simply not reasonable!
   Small drops of water start hitting the cars windows and I just stare outside, from my part of the car, not sparing a glance at Edward.  
  The hole ride is very silent, but I can feel his muscles flex and his grip tightening on the wheel.                   
   Something is bothering him, but I am in a debate with myself, maybe I shouldn't ask him anything, I don't even know if he is mad because of what I said at school or if he is mad because of a personal problem. But either way, I have this strong feeling that the right thing to do is to ask him, and after all, what could happen? It's just a question. I turn my head and I tried to ask him out loud, but it came out more as a whisper than as a question asked by a confident, strong person that I wanted to be.
   "Hey, did something happen?"
  He ignores me for a small amount of time, and then when the car came to a stop he turns to me and says.
   "No everything is alright." Which is a big and huge lie... I mean it's kind of obvious.
   "Are you sure? Why are you so tense then?" I ask him again, pushing him, it kind of hurts me because he didn't answer the truth. He just gave me a blunt lie.
   "I said I was fine!" He said, his voice raising more then it should have been, for a simple answer like that. I tried to open my mouth again to say "sorry" but when he sees my intention he just grabs my arm and gives me a look that should tell me: "Don't go further."
Tears start forming in the back of my eyes because of his reaction, I never had the intention to upset him nor crossing the line, but somehow his reaction scares me.
Now he is just starring at me, his chest raising and falling faster then it should, and his grip on my arm tightens. I just can not stand this anymore. What happened with the sweet and protective guy that I thought he was? His stare feels like it's burning my skin, and I can't hold my tears back for much longer so I think that the best right now is just to get out of the car and go away. I just want to be far away from him.
   So I just avert my face from him while I jerk my hand out of his grip, and faster then the lightning I am out of the car and in the pouring rain. How do I get myself in this situations? What did I do wrong this time? The rain is so powerful that you can not see clearly through it, but I can see that I don't reconise this place. I have never been in this part of the town, but like a bit of sun in an awful day, I spot a taxi, down the street, not really that far away from me. So I start walking fast, but my feet just stop, in a metter of a second, when I hear the door from his car being slamed behind me. I don't even have the strength to turn around, I know that he is probably angry that I just left without saying anything, and probably angrier that he had to get outside of the car in this awful weather.
   It takes me a good couple of seconds to realise that I am waiting for something bad to happen, just staying here. So when realisation finally hits me, I start practically running to the taxi and luckly I get there before him. I close the door of the car so fast that the driver looks at me weird, but just asks me for the adress, probably being used to this kinds of situations. I tell him the adress and before the driver had the chance to say anything or to put the car into gear, Edward is at my window banging in it with the angriest face I have ever seen on him. It is the scarriest thing I have seen until now. No one ever looked at me like that. The driver looks at me with a puzzeled expression and the only thing that comes out of my mouth at this point is...
   "Just hit the gas, please just drive." And the car starts moving as I see Edward getting smaller and smaller by the second. And I can not control my tears anymore, small warm tears are running down my face fading in the drops of rain that are falling from my hair and on my face. I can still see him in the mirror of the car, just staying there on the sidewalk, in the middle of this pouring rain.   
   And my heart feels like it has just broke in a million pieces. This huge curtain of pain seems to be covering me and my tears start falling like the rain outside the car.

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