phan oneshots

goodbye internet

I'm going to apologize in advance right now,I'm sorry

Triggers: mentions of suicide
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A video clip plays.

It's been 16 years since Phil died. I am so alone these days

Dan comes on screen "So I know you guys remember that from one of our many philsisnotonfires. But it hasn't been that many years yet." Dan takes a shuddering breath.

"As a lot of you know,last month Phil was hit by a car." A tear rolls down Dan's cheek. "He was rushed to a hospital, but they couldn't revive him."

Dan cries harder and he starts to hyperventilate some.

"I've tried to go on making videos. But I can't. He was why I started filming. How am I supposed to film without him? I wake up every morning and I forget that he's gone. I go to kitchen and expect to find him eating my cereal. Then I remember and I break down in tears. I haven't left my apartment in weeks. I can't even go to his room with crying and wishing it was me who was dead." Dan wipes his eyes as fresh tears come . "Who is supposed to save me from my existential crisis? And who is going to make gaming videos with me? And who is supposed to be my best friend"

Dan looks at the camera . He smiles but the tears are still flowing down his face.

"So this is it. I'm sorry. But with out my best friend, with out Phil, I don't see the point in making videos anymore.

Goodbye Internet"

Dan gives the camera one last smile and turns it off. He deletes google plus, twitter,Instagram, tumblr. Everything but YouTube. He lays down and cries.

His body shakes from all the pain he's in. He misses Phil with all his heart. He can't stand to make videos anymore. He can't stand to do anything.

-next week-

NEWS REPORT

Dan Howell, 27, was found dead in his apartment.

He was found laying on his bedroom floor with an empty pill bottle and a half-full glass of wine. He had written a note :

To whoever finds this, I'm sorry you had to find me this way. I just couldn't live with out him. So I left. I'm sorry , but I'm going to the best place for me. Now I can beat Phil at Mario cart 8 endlessly. And we can watch Buffy and play Pokemon forever. Goodbye world.