Strong | The Back For You Series | A Harry Styles Fan Fiction

Shadows

    I didn't really want to fight with yet another band member. I feel like I'm to blame for a lot of things around here. "She was better off with me! I never made her cry!" He yells at me and I get even angrier. "She was mine first and you treat her like shit! I don't know why she even stays with you!" He yells at me some more.

    "I'm great to her! She's mine! You can't change the fact that we're getting married! I love her!" I yell back. "I love her more than anything! How don't you see that!? If you love her so much why did you dump her and go on a stupid singing show!"

   "I was going to try to get her back before you impregnated her with a faulty baby!" He screams at me more.

   "I'm done with this argument!" I turn around and run away from all the eyes that were staring. I lay in bed next to Madi and she moves up next to me. "I'm sorry...not to night. I hope you didn't hear that."  I say and turn away.

    "I love you."

    "hmm" I answer and clothes my eyes. I couldn't wait to be home tomorrow.

     Our car pulled up to my house and I grabbed everything from the trunk. It was nice to be back here again. I missed this gate. And this number pad. I missed being at home. The boys all piled in my house and I ordered take out like usual. "You want to take the bags upstairs?" I ask and Madi nods. I kiss her gently and she takes them away. "Make yourselves at home boys." I get some plates out once the food arrives. "Madi, foods here!" There's no answer and I walk up the steps. "Madibug." I say as I see her standing in the nursery. "Please don't do this to me. You don't need to be in there. " I looked around the room. Eleanor painted it when she came home from Ireland. It was very pretty and girl. I thought it would have fit her very well. Ms Styles was written in nice white paint above the crib. On the wall hung picture frames of every ultrasound Mads has ever gotten. "It's pretty in here isn't it..." I say and sit in the rocking chair. She nods and I pull her onto my lap. Tears run down my face as I stare at the purple wall. It was nice and warm in here. It would've been perfect for a baby. "There's a reason for everything." I say into her neck.

    "Why is my baby dead...?" She asks. That was a hard question and I sit and think for a second. "See th-"

    "Well, God knew we needed to be together, because we're perfect for each other. So he gave her to us. But then he knew it would never work, with us having a baby so young...so he needed her back. Now they're up there talking about us. And laughing about how dumb we are." I say and she laughs slightly.

    "It's still not fair." She says again.

    "Nothings fair. Maybe he knew in reality I'd do a crap job at being a dad. I'd be gone too much. "Let's get out of here.  We don't need to be in here." I stand up and walk her out. I take our bags to the bedroom and Madi sits down on the bed. "Come here." I gesture her over to the dresser. "Look at this..." I show her one of the first pictures we took together. "You're so beautiful. I haven't told you that enough lately." I kiss her. "I'm so lucky to have you. And I promise we can have another healthy little baby." I wrap my arms around her shoulders. "Are you hungry? There's pizza down stairs." I say and follow her down. The boys sit in a circle talking about tours, and girls, and music, while devouring our pizza. I hand Madi a plate and we relax a bit on the sofa. It was nice to be home again, although we didn't have our daughter here. It was relaxing, finally.

   Throughout the night, we watch a few movies. All the boys leave but Louis and Eleanor. One by one slowly and we were finally alone, for what seemed like the first time in forever. Eleanor and Louis were occuping the spare bedroom in the basement. Louis was too lazy to call for a ride home. And Eleanor has her stuff she has to pack up.  Maura or Bobby used to always be there, or one of the other lads. Now we were just a couple finally at home alone together. "You're tired, c'mon, let's get to bed." I said as she lies against my chest. Now we finally lay in quietness. 

    "I don't wanna go to bed yet Har." She says in a whiney voice. I looked down at her tired face and knew she was lying. 

    "You need your rest, you had a busy week. C'mon. I know you're tired." I say again and sit up. "It'll be good for you." I kiss her. "C'mon." 

    "I just don't want to go to bed." She leans against my chest. 

    "Alright, how about we take a hot bath?" I suggest.

    "I guess so." She stands up and I start unbuttoning my shirt on the way up the steps. I open the door too our master bath and start running the water in the master bath. She begins pulling off her clothes one piece at a time, then brushes through her hair. I lit the candle the sat around the edge of the tub. After a long wait for the tub to fill, I finally pour in some bubble bath. "Is it ready?" She asks and I nod. I pull off my boxers and step in. It the warm water soothed every muscle in my body. Madi stepped in after me and we sat in the warm water together. I slowly get her hair wet and run my fingers through it a few times. I bubble up the shampoo and wash her hair. Once I'm done, I pull her body against mine. I  run my hand down her body and hold her hands close to mine. We lay like that for another hour before the tubs water becomes cool. "I love you so much." I say as I wrap her in a towel. "tonight?" I ask.

    "I'm fragile, what if it hurts..." She looks up at me with scared eyes.

    "I won't hurt you. I swear." I kiss her again. "Tonight?" I ask again.

     "I guess so. Be careful." She responds.  I pick her up gently and lay her on the bed.

     "I swear, I'll go slow...If it hurts I'll stop." She closes her eyes as I kiss her neck and collar bone. I make my way down to the edge of the towel and unwrap it, revealing her body. It was completely perfect to me. Her hand finds the small of my back and it sends shivers up my spine. I close the gap between us and she begins moving in sync with me. Her hot breath runs across my neck. I feel that pit in my stomach and speed up a little bit. She yelps a little and I stop. "I'm sorry babe."I start kissing her neck again. "I'm sorry..." she begins to relax again as our shadows dance on the wall. I grip the head board and hold my weight up with that, focusing on her face. "Just hold on..." I whisper in a husky voice, out of breathe. It seems like as fast as we started we were done, fall off of her and pull her into my arms. "I love you beautiful..." I kiss her gently before going off to sleep.