See Me - An OkiKagu Love Story Part Two

Kagura POV

God how I loved hearing him laugh. It was the only reason why I even bothered to fall into his traps and play his games. His laugh made my brain turn to mush while my stomach did flip flops. I leapt onto his shoulders, laughing. 

"Oh. My. God. Could you two get any more lovey dovey? Gr-oss." Both Sougo and I groan and turn. "What's wrong Matako? Did the 30 something year old man you're so in love with realize you have stains all over your underwear?"

"Don't talk about Shinsuke-sama like that! He's not even 30 yet!" The blonde haired girl snapped irritably. Sighing, I leapt off of Sougo. "Then why you bugging us? You jealous that this Shinsuke guy won't let you be all lovey dovey with him?" I sneer. This girl is even more annoying than Otsuu at times. 

Last year there had been a few incidents between the two of us and now she hated my guts with a passion. Not that I cared. She was just another useless cockroach in my opinion. Matako flushed a deep red and I smiled triumphantly. Bulls-eye. 

"Come on Sougo. She's lost," I say taking his hand. Sougo shrugs and lets me lead him away. But we didn't get three steps before Matako decided to yell out the impossible. 

"Enjoy it while you can Kagura! We all know what will happen when Sougo finds out about your little problem with....children." I freeze and time seems to stop. How the hell does she know? Why would she even look something like that up? Where would one even go to look up my medical records from years ago? How did she know to look there? Who tipped her off? 

"Kagura?" Sougo asks, but his voice sounds like it's a million miles away. I slowly let go of his hand and turn towards the blonde bitch. She smirks triumphantly at me. Screw it. I don't care if I get detention or even suspended. 

I clench my fist and throw myself at her, slugging her as hard as I can. Her jaw makes a "pop" like sound and she flies backwards into some freshmen. I stalk towards her but Sougo's there, wrapping his arms around him, trying to hold me back. I fight him like a wildcat needing blood. Gin-chan comes running out and it doesn't take him long to put two and two together. 

"Whoa! Whoa! What is going on here?" He yells putting himself in between me and the sobbing Matako. She sniffled and pointed at me. "All I did was drop a comment and she punched me! My jaw huuuurts!" she wailed. Gin-chan kneeled down to inspect her. He passed me an irritable look. 

"Come on let's get you to the nurse. Kagura. My classroom. Now," he said helping her up. I roll my eyes and let Sougo drag me to Gin-chan's classroom. He's mad. I can feel it vibrating off of him. "What's got your panties twisted in a bunch?" I ask as he shuts the door behind us. 

"You've been hiding something from me. It's got something to do with what she said, doesn't it?" He asked, turning to face me. 

"I don't have the faintest idea what you're implying," I say, crossing my arms. 

"Really Kagura? You're going to play dumb? Now of all times?" Sougo asked. "What are you hiding?"

"Nothing Sougo. I'm not hiding a thing!" I say. 

"Yes you are!" 

"Drop it!"

"I will not! What is it that has you so frightened! What could be so bad that you can't even tell me?" 

"I said drop it!" 

"And I said no! Tell me dammit or I'm walking out and I'm not coming back!"

"What?" 

"You heard me. I'm sick of this. I hate having to pretend like everything's fine when I know it's not! You're scared to tell me something but I don't care! I won't be in a relationship with you if it means you're going to lie to me! Tell me!" He yelled, shaking me. 

I've lost. Either way it's a lose-lose for me. Tell him and he'll dump me or don't and he'll still dump me. It's time I started to face reality. No one would want to date broken goods like me. God why did Matako have to ruin everything? I was so happy. We were so happy. I don't want to lose him. "Well?" 

I look down at the floor, my eyes welling up with tears. I hate crying. It makes me seem even more pathetic than I already am. I take a step away from him and I tell him the secret I tried so hard to hide. 

"I can't get pregnant," I whispered. 

"What? Of course not. That's why we use condoms Kagura. So you won't," he says, confused. 

"That's not what I mean Sougo. I mean even if we were to take off all protection, I still wouldn't be able to get pregnant."

"What do you mean Kagura?" 

"When I was a baby, I had some sort of sickness. They were forced to sterilize me. I can't have children. Ever," I say, my voice small. Silence. The clock ticks behind us and it's the only noise. I can't even hear him breathing.

I force myself to look at him. He's pale and staring at me with a horrified expression. I can't take this. I don't want him of all people look at me like that. I shake my head and turn and bolt out the door, nearly knocking over Gin-chan. 

Before he can stop me, I'm flying past him. I run down the stairs and out of the school, needing to get away. The wind rips at my clothes and I can barely breathe. Everything hurts. I never wanted Sougo of all people to look at me with THAT expression. Tears choke me and once I get into my house, I collapse in the entryway, sobbing. I'm a broken mess. My mascara runs down my face but at this point I just don't care. 

"I can't stay here. Gin will be back and Sougo will never forgive me. I don't want to deal with them," I say to myself. I force myself off the ground. There's a stabbing pain in my left side. "Ouch!" I hiss. "What the hell?" I drag myself up the stairs. I don't make it before a pain so ferocious rips  throughout my side. I scream and collapse on the stairs. 

"Make it stop! Make it stop!" I scream as agony racks my body. It hurts so bad. Someone help me!