Moment in Time

Chapter 5

Recap:

"Who's the guy in the back", of course no one knew who he was, we did just meet him, I'm not surprised. I then commented back "my fav". I then deleted my response, because it's not something I wanted to throw around for everyone to know. I know that questions would rise, and he would start getting involved.

Chapter 5

Zoe's POV

After that party, I tried to spend as much time as I can with Zach, I also got Stacy involved and help me with my little shenanigans. Theirs this thing we do after school where we wait until he gets home and take action. I know, I know, that sounds a little odd, but it works! He told us how he had swimming practice from 3-5 so we just wait for him to get home. But get this, instead of going to his door Stacy and I ride our bikes in front of his house and he eventually comes out. The weirdest thing is he gets out so fast after we pass by, it's unreal. Their were never times when it was just him and I because I would be the most awkward person ever around him. I barely talk to him, which can prove why he does not have ANY sort of feelings for me. He would go for a person like Stacy though, she's fun, funny, pretty, etc. But i'm just a shy girl sitting there with the both of them awkwardly in front of my house, listening into their conversation, and butting in every once in awhile.

My days were the same with him, nothing changed, Stacy always filled the awkward silences, because i seem to never get anything out, or start a convo. But there was this one night where my feelings for him grew. Stacy left early so I was left alone with him, we're riding our bikes in small circles and it was never-ending. We talked about school, our lives, but the silence was still very awkward, and there was a ton. When we got tired of riding, we sat down, and we talked some more, I've learned a lot about him. How his favorite color is blue, his favorite subject is Science, he plays the drums, etc. We stayed out there until 8:30pm, which was shocking because his parents would never.....

As a few days went by, I seem to spend a lot more alone time with him. I'm hanging out with Stacy and we were planning on hanging out with Zac too. We went to the store nearby and bought gatorades and silly string.

While we were waiting, we visited this house for sale, and one of our old friends family was visiting too so we joined the tour with them. When it was finished we went back outside to our bikes, but then I saw balloons on the "For Sale" sign in front of the house, so i gladly took one!

We headed back and when we got back, it was time for Stacy to go, it was already a quarter to 7 in the afternoon. We said our goodbye's and parted. As Stacy was entering the car, Zac passed by with his car.

He then came to my house after he got back, I told him how i got this balloon at this one house and how it popped because of the grass.

Zac then insisted to go back to the house and get more balloons, so we did, we rode our bikes back and fourth first so we won't get caught.

We're spending a small amount of time together after we get back because it was time for him to go home.

June 5:

It's Friday, my favorite part of the week! Zach, Stacy, Zoey, and I were all walking to our destinations, Stacy was coming home with me to hang out. That same day, it was sparkling so it was kind of dark and cold.

Around 4:30, Zach arrived from school and he headed to my house, Zoey ended up coming later. We spent our time outside pointing out each lightning we heard. Of course one of us would always be like, "you missed it, that was the best one!" But it wasn't really.

We all then sat down and decided to get drinks from inside my house, there was a ton lying around because my dad was having some type of party. I of course tried to sit by Zach as close as I can, but he kept trying to scoot over next to Stacy. The pain I'm feeling is unbearable, and the jealousy keeps adding up every second, every minute, I didn't know what to do.

As it started to rain, we all decided to go back inside, but the 3 decided they want to stay out in the rain, and just fool around. I wanted to join, so I asked my father because he's always very strict when it comes to playing out in the rain. And of course, the answer was no...

That was it, I couldn't hold in my tears any longer so I ran to my room and locked the door, not looking behind me. I started playing Shawn Mendes' album to drown out my crying in the room. I felt so alone, and the sadness and jealousy is the only thing I have. I feel worthless, and unwanted.

Stacy then started knocking on the door, I was conflicted at first when it came to opening the door, but I got the energy to finally do it.

When she entered my room we both sat down face to face and she asks me, "What's wrong."

I don't know if I should answer because it's ridiculous how I'm crying over a guy I barely just met, this is literally the second time I've cried over him and Stacy.

I finally manage to say "I'm jealous of him and you, you guys are so close, and I feel like I'm so far."

She comforts me and hugs me and tell me that she's sorry, she also asked if I wanted Zac to come in here, and I said no because I didn't want him to see me like this. So instead, Zoe came, she asked me what's wrong. I didn't want to tell her the full truth so I just showed her this video edit of Zac I made, weird I know right, I feel like it's a lot more awkward than telling her what's wrong. The video just proved that I do in fact have feelings for Zac, and now it's just him that doesn't know. Zoe thinks that it's not a big deal and just brushed it off like it's nothing. If only she knew how hard it was to tell her that.

Throughout the rest of the night, we just hung out in my room for awhile, all of us, they were drying off. But then Zac had to leave and Zoe ended up texting him and Stacy got involved. Stacy starts calling him brother and I know and I feel like she's low key flirting, and yes, that does bother me. They talked for awhile, and then they left me again, alone, in my room.

Zoe and Stacy decided to go over to Zac's house and hang out with him, it was such a depressing experience for me, why? I wasn't invited to go, at all. I then of course started feeling bad and sad again, so I just laid there. I couldn't do anything else, I couldn't sleep yet, Zoe and Stacy were sleeping over.

When they came back, they mentioned how they were around this big rock outside of his house and they were discussing words with 2 different pronunciations like potato (po-ta-to).

For the rest of the night I was able to express my feeling through song, and I don't think they noticed that. I played songs like Somebody To You by The Vamps and much more...

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