Song of the chapter: Moments by One Direction
Jasmine's POV
I sat there with red, puffy eyes, just staring at the vase with Connor's remains. I couldn't even watch them cremate him.
It's been a week and I still feel so empty. He was the only really good friend that I made. Connor was the only person that I could talk to about the boys and the pregnancy. Now, I don't have anyone to talk to. He'll never be able to meet the baby.
I felt dampness on my cheeks, I was crying again. I brought my hand up to my face and wiped away the constant flow of tears. I found myself walking over the the sealed vase with his ashes. I grabbed it and held it carefully like it was all I had.
This vase was all I had left of him. We still have no idea what happened to him. Somebody snapped his neck and it wasn't me. Somebody killed my best friend and I want revenge.
I carried the vase over to the little table beside my bed. I set it down next to the picture of Connor and I.
"He's gone!" I screamed in between my sobs. I tangled my hands up in my hair as I sat on the floor, up against my bed. "Connor." I whispered.
There was an indescribably terrible feeling inside of me. It felt like there was a chunk of me missing, like I was never going to get over his death.
I want my best friend back.
The day I met him, there was just something about him that made me forget about the love mess that I was in. He was always making me laugh. I could completely open up to him and tell him everything.
Connor was my light at the end of this long, dark, scary, lonely tunnel and now that he's gone, there's no light. He knew about my depression, my past, everything about me.
In such a short amount of time, Connor and I became incredibly close. And I'm so grateful that I had him in my life but I'm just not ready to let him go.
This feeling that I have is such a horrible, lonely feeling. I can't even begin to describe what this is like for me. It feels like the walls are caving in on me. I have to get out of here.
Suddenly, it began to get hard to breathe. I sat there and cried as everything around me began getting darker. I grabbed the only photo I have of Connor and I and held it in my hand before the darkness consumed me.
An Hour Later
I slowly opened my eyes. I saw the picture of Connor and I in my hands and bit my lip, trying not to break down again.
I think I had an anxiety attack or something like that!
I didn't want to move, I just wanted to roll up in a ball and cry. I grabbed the blanket from my bed and covered myself up as I lay on the floor, crying.
If Connor were here, he would stand me up and hug me. After a long, warm hug he would tell me to stop crying and smile because he's in a better place. But Connor isn't here. I wanna be with him, I wanna sit beside him and see his smile. I want to hear his voice. Just one more time. I just want to turn back time and hug him and tell him how much he means to me, how great of a friend he is. But I can't, I'll never be able to do that.
I just wanted a normal life. Honestly, I kind of wish that the boys never turned me. I wish I was never bitten. But if I wasn't bitten than I would have never met Connor.
Connor's POV
I sat on the floor, next to Jasmine. "I'm here, Jas. It's alright." I cooed. I wish she could hear and see me. I've been here with her all along. I hate seeing her like this.
"Jas, you didn't know."
I have to find a way to show her that I'm alright! I wish I could wipe her tears away, hug her once more and tell her that everything is going to be alright.
Suddenly the door swung open, it was Zayn, "Jas, you ha- oh my!"
Zayn walked over to me and looked at me with wide eyes. "Connor?"
"Zayn that's not funny!" Jasmine shouted as she stood up and threw her blanket on the bed. "Why would you do that?"
"No, he's…Connor is standing right there!" he replied as he pointed at me.
"You can see me!"
"Zayn, what the bloody hell are you talking about?" Jas asked.
"Close your eyes and clear your mind. Then look." he said.
Jasmine did as she was told when she opened her eyes, she covered her mouth as tears fell from her eyes.
"C-connor!"
"God, I wish I could hug you." I confessed as I smiled.
"What happened? Who did this to you?!" she questioned. My heart sunk as I looked at her with tears in my eyes.
"I'm so glad you can see me!" I changed the subject. "I'm going to go scare some people, I'll see you later love."
"Oh um ok, bye." she frowned.
I didn't want to leave her but she knows me well enough and I can't hide it from her for much longer.
Jasmine's POV
I ran up to Zayn and wrapped my arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. I haven't really talked to or hugged anybody since Connor's death. Zayn let out a sigh of relief before I felt his arms wrap around my waist as he hugged me back.
"I missed that." Zayn confessed as we pulled away from the hug.
"Zayn, I'm scared." I whispered.
"Of what?"
"I'm not ready to have a baby. I don't want the baby to be born into this mess." I replied referring to the fact that I don't know who I love yet.
"That's why we are going to sort all of this out before the baby is born. We have two months, just follow your heart love." he cooed.
"Sometimes I can't hear my heart."
"Listen closely when you need directions. You're heart will never fail to lead you down the right path." Zayn stated as he tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear.
"Thanks." I muttered.
A/N: I'm sorry that this chapter was so short! But I couldn't keep you waiting.
What do you think Connor isn't telling Jasmine?
FYI- there's going to be a huge plot twist coming up!
Comment who you want Jas to end up with.
~Haley
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