Dear Notebook,
God. This is pathetic. I haven't written in this thing in years. But I just need to do something about this. It all starts with a boy. That's funny. That's how it always starts. But, this guy is a little different. I'm not sure if that's in a good way, he acts strange which makes him stand out, and his unnatural black hair doesn't really help him fit in with the crowd. Not to mention he either had a pretty big mark on his neck. It was either a hickey or a bruise but I'm in no place to ask. If I did it would seem like I have a crush on him and so far I've been admiring from afar, I would talk to him but I don't know if he even likes men.
Hell I barely know if I like men, high school is a pretty strange place especially when it comes to sexuality. Very few people here are out of the closet. I am but only to my friends and parents. My mom tries to talk with me about cute guys but it gets really awkward really quick and sometimes I regret my life choices. But if you don't regret your life choices are you really a teenager?
I wouldn't be writing in this but I'm in detention. I have no school work to do and other than listening to music in my headphones there's really nothing I can do, I mean I'm not that good at art so I can't mindlessly doodle so I thought I'd rant about this cute guy. He looks pretty good in the schools uniform and his long black hair covers his face which makes him look mysterious. I haven't gotten a good look at his whole face due to his hair but I'm gonna assume it's hot as fuck. Not like I'm ever gonna tell him. I mean, I don't even talk to him and if he's seen me there's no way he would want to, I'm constantly staring at him but you can't really blame me, there's just something about him.
I wish I could talk to him but I don't think I'd actually be able to, I feel like my confidence would just disappear if I had the chance to confess my love and shit. It's just a stupid school boy crush on some guy I barely know and probably doesn't even like guys cuz no guy who I think is cute likes guys. That's just my luck. Well, that and being in detention at least twice a week every week.
It gets kinda boring, like all the time, but watching people argue with the teacher and random things that shouldn't be funny, they just are? My sense of humor isn't the best. It's actually pretty dark. Might be why I only have a few friends. Wow. Everything kinda makes sense. Wait. That was a lie nothing does.
"Okay guys detention over you can leave."
*pretty uneventful, I don't know where I'm going with this, is it good so far though? Anyways, Byye*
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