This story is partly the representation of my conflicting ideas and thoughts and how I am as a person and partly the type of conversations I've had with someone and the notes I've sent her.
I did believe that it was worth it to stay alive and hoped that during my time staying alive I would learn to feel alive again, as well as her. If anyone needs to talk I am here, as well as so many other people eager to help - never think that nobody cares because that is a lie. Never think that it won't get better, that is also a lie.
You are good enough, you deserve happiness, people would be devastated if you died and you are capable of recovery. Try not to let everything get to you. People say things just to be cruel. I try to convince myself this, it works to a certain extent as a lot of my achievements are to spite people who said I couldn't. Stay alive and achieve things you never thought you could just because you can, and just because someone said you can't. Life will surprise you.
Finally, don't kill yourself over temporary thoughts and emotions, you don't want to lose your future because it will be good eventually.
Thankyou for reading, stay safe.
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'Broken' is a state of mind (Joshler)
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