An eye for an eye makes the world go blind
So I guess I have to forgive you
Scrubbing words off my brain like some overused chalkboard
Turning desperate memories to melancholy chords
Remember when we were thin?
Thought we'd never have to eat again
Thin/pretty, thin/beautiful, thin/is/all/you'll/ever/be
But we never tried for thin/healthy
Did we?
When we said good-bye, I wrote a thousand letters
Buried in grief, I told myself I was better
You were acid, leading me down a crooked street
Tell me then, why does poison taste so sweet?
And I know what I promised, to stay brittle and thin
Let cheeks be sunken hollow, and bone cling to skin
I left you there, in dangerland
To seek refuge from the burning sand
I know what it feels like to be 85
But Cas, skinny doesn't make you alive
Wearing hoodies in the summer, because everything made us cold
Reinventing faerie tales to match the lies we sold
I tore up those notecards we wrote
Stopped shoving rice cakes down my throat
I destroyed your list of "safe foods"
Hoarded sweets like stolen goods
Ripped apart those "Thin Commandments" we made
While high on Splenda and sugar-free gatorade
I came down from my adrenaline rush
To see you, broken and crushed
So I'm sorry you're still sick
I tore down our freezing kingdom brick by brick
It's my fault for letting you waste away
Believe me, I still pray
If you want to stay ill, I can't stop you
If you want to die, at least I tried!
But if an eye for an eye makes the world go blind
Then it is you, who should be forgiving I
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Please, Disregard
PoetryAn untold story from a misplaced generation, this is teen angst at its finest. These the writings of The Suicide Notebook, or how I'd imagine them to be. It's mostly going to be in poetry form, slam or rhyming. Keep in mind that slam poetry sounds a...
