School:
I get on the bus.
I put on my earbuds and block the world out. That's the best way to start your day. Then We get to Jaidens stop. I saved a spot for her. I make an exception and take out one earbud so I can listen to her. We talk for a while.
J:"Whatcha listening to Keats?"
K:"It's death cab for cutie."
J:"Oh cool, can I hear it?"
K:"Yeah"
Soon were both singing out loud together being total dorks.
When we get to school, I wait for her to get her book and we walk to class.
Ugh don't you just hate having science first thing in the morning?
I don't know why, maybe it's normal but, I tend to space out a lot in class. Maybe it's the boring lesson. Maybe it's that I have a lot on my mind.
Honestly, I think it's all because of my parents divorce, why I have bad grades, why I used to cut. I lowered their standards, not entirely on purpose though. I don't get to see my dad much anymore, he remarried, and Wes doesn't spend as much time with me as he used to but, I understand, he's popular and he has a reputation to uphold and friends to hang out with, and parties to go to but, I miss just sitting on the couch with him talking, I don't mind parties but I'm not into drugs. I used to actually consider Wes my best friend, maybe I still kind of do. At least we will always be "the strombros."
Its all good. Im more independent anyways, I like to hang out with my cat Zuni. Not that I'm some total loser who has no friends. I mean that I've had Zuni since I was a kid and he's loyal, he's kinda like a brother to me. Okay, ..that's probably kinda weird but you know what I mean.
Shit! ..I probably should've been paying attention to what Mr. Grisson was saying because I'm totally gonna fail that astronomy quiz. hmm astronomy......"reach for the stars."
what am i doing? STOP DAYDREAMING KEATON!! I thought to myself.
A paper sat in front of me.
A sweat gland streamed down my face. I tapped my old beat up black converse on the ground. I puffed out my cheeks, then exhaled. I stared at the clock.
Jaiden could tell I was nervous. She gave me a thumbs up and mouth 'you can do this!' and winked at me. I faked a half smile 'thanks!' As I tapped my eraser against the table.
I filled in the little answer bubbles to form a shape of some sort lol, I don't know what the hell I'm doing, I mean who knows how nebulas form or the grammatical words for the each of the phases of the moon, not me.
I finished and so I pretended to read a book while I scribbled on my table and waited for this class to be over.
Later after lunch I sat outside along the fence writing lyrics in my notebook. "reach for the stars, believe me they aren't too far. they aren't too far. Let yourself be surrounded. By the darkness across the sky. let your heart believe your eyes tonight.."
I was doing just fine until some asshole threw a football at me really hard in the shoulder. (Wes was one of the people playing football with him.) "what the fuck is wrong with you man?" wesley said to him. "no its fine, Wes I got this" I shot back.
Who was that asshole? oh yeah, that was Josh. Apparently he has a thing for Jaiden, I guess if he thinks I'm competition than I'm winning here
"Whoops." The guy said sarcastically as his friends all laughed and assumed I was gonna just sit back and take it. Wrong.
I picked up the football and stood up. I threw the football at the guy so hard, he flew backwards onto the ground. "I wasn't going to say anything but, you need to work on your throwing or else you'll always be second string. "Oh!" said the crowd in sync. "Ooh kill em" said another guy.
Yup that's right, I'm good at sports. Im better than a lot of these guys but, that's just not my crowd, I'd rather stick to what I know, it's easier, and I like it better. All I need is music to be happy.
Later that night:
I was recording and editing my new song. I used auto tune which made it really cool. I learned how to do a lot of that stuff from my dad and Wesley.
I heard a knock at my door. I opened it. it was Wes.
"Hey come in."
"hey Keaterpan sounding good in here, can I listen to what you got so far?"
"Thanks. yeah. it's almost finished."
He sat on my bed and listened to it. I liked when he was proud of me because I looked up to him a lot. He gave me some input and it turned out great.
"Hey do you put your songs on soundcloud?"
"No, what's that?"
"It's this site where you can record music and listen to other people's music, you should check it out, I put some of my stuff on there."
So we made me an account and uploaded my song. The next day I got a ton of likes on it.
Thursday:
Me and Jaiden went to the railroad bridge and I took pictures.
thats another thing to know about me, in my spare time i like to do photography.
"Wow nice shot!" she said.
"Thanks. I wonder where this river ends up?"
"Probably the ocean somewhere, I don't know."
I got some cool pics of the native trees and the river. yup that's one thing about Washington, lotza trees lol.
We walked along the path that went past the bridge and turned around.
We walked down to the river and skipped rocks.
"What do you dream about?, where do you see yourself in 5 years?" I ask her.
It took a lot if thought.
"I'm not really good at anything. I think maybe ill just end up staying here an extra year or two after high school. Maybe ill go to Washington university. Maybe ill travel. I used to have this map on my wall with tacs in it marking all the places I wanted to go."
"But what?" I asked.
"Then someday, something crushed my dreams. I was convinced i couldn't do it, that I was just delusional, I would be stuck in this town forever, probably working at Walmart or something with douchebags from school that have no future. So I hid the map in my closet and forgot about it."
"So you want to leave this place someday?"
"That was the original plan."
"Hmm. well don't ever let anyone tell you what you can and can't do, if I get out of this place, I sure as hell know you can."
"Awww thank you." She said, giving me a hug. "you're the only person who believes in me." She said into my ear with her arms locked around my neck.
Wow what happens next? 😘 💘 please vote!
Anyways I hope you have an excellent day, thanks for reading my story!!
xo paisley
