tough; j.b (book one) completed/editing

20. arguments and tears

"Hey guys this is Karen" Joey says, walking over with the girl.

She smiles and grabs onto his arm. My heart broke, I held back the tears and started shaking a little.

"Joey is amazing! he makes me laugh so much" I roll my eyes and look at Mark who was already looking at me.

"Nice meeting you" Charles stuck his hand out making me pissed off.

I decided not to deal with the bullshit so I walk away tears rolling down my cheek. I wiped them away so I didn't cause any attention.

"Kayla!" I ignored Mark and kept on walking. I fiddled with my card as I started shaking and my vision was blurry from the tears.

I was gonna have a panic attack, I know it. I've had terrible anxiety my whole life but ever sense Alec left my panic attacks are ten times worse then originally.

"Hey, hey" Mark calmly says, I started breathing heavily and started shaking.

"What did I do wrong? Am I not as pretty? Skinny? what did I do?-" My breathing was terrible.

Mark grabbed my arm and took me into the room as the door opened.

He pulls me into a tight hug and rubs my back. I shook more and more and cried.

"Listen, this isn't a great time to admit how I feel but it's gonna happen. You're the most beautiful girl i've ever looked at, you're not by any means fat! You're body is amazing in my eyes. Kayla you make me smile so fucking much just one look at you makes me smile. It killed me seeing you with Joey, he's my best friend so if he was happy with you, I had to accept that. What he did makes me wanna punch him in the face. I'm on your side all the way. You're an amazing girl Kayla. Don't think terrible of yourself because of Joey" I went silent. I held him tighter.

What he said made my heartbeat faster. No matter how cliché that sounds it was true. I put my hands on the side of his face and pull him down towards me. He presses his lips on mine softly. I felt so many things going inside my stomach.

Was Mark it?

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Tomorrow was the last day of the event, it was really upsetting but I'll see everyone soon.

I ignored Joey all day today, i've been talking to everyone except for him. It didn't seem to bother him at all because he was with Karen.

Supposedly she lives in Washington so at least I didn't have to worry about them being with each other.

"Kayla" I smile but soon fades away as I saw it was Joey.

"I don't wanna be around you" Joey stiffens up and rolls his eyes.

"Can't be happy that I found another friend?!"

"You made it such a big deal when Blake was around me, you cock blocked me! but it's okay for a girl you barely know to ruin what I thought we had? I hate you." Mark grabbed my arm pulling me back.

Joey looked at me with hurt in his eyes.

"Why? especially now" I say, in a low voice. People around us stood there watching or listening being nosy.

"You lost my trust and you also lost me" I say, he frowns and I walk away with Mark, holding back tears.

I know i'm being dramatic but i've been hurt way to many times to deal with this again.

"Don't cry. You just let everything out" I smile and hug him thanking him for being there.

"Anytime" Charles walks over and puts his hand on my back.

"You're okay bud" I hug him too and smile looking down.

This sucks.