We arrived in Washington, I still felt like complete shit but my throat wasn't as bad.
Our show was late tonight around eight. So I had time to rest.
"Stop!!" I started laughing really hard, as Harvey tickled my sides.
"Nope" I laugh harder and harder as he kept tickling me.
"Please!" he stops, I breathed heavily and close my eyes. Joey mumbles and walks in the bathroom. Charles and I look at each other, shrugging.
Joey came out ignoring us all; walking out of the room. Harvey sighs and runs his hand through his hair.
"What was that all about?" Mark asked, I shrug again.
"I-I'm gonna leave" I give Harvey confused look watching as he stood up.
"Why?" he shook his head, he looks at me with a sad look on his face.
"I'm tired" I look down as he walks out. Mark follows Harvey.
"Joey probably got pissed" I stay silent, I fiddle with my fingers feeling guilty.
"Don't stress over it"
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The show was super awkward, Joey avoided me the whole entire time. Anytime we were by each other he would start flirting with someone.
We walked into the room in awkward silence. Charles jumped into bed closing his eyes right away. Mark went to shower leaving us alone.
I was getting sick of Joeys bullshit, I grabbed his arm turning him around facing me.
"What's your problem?" you can tell the anger he felt, his posture was straight, he looked stiff as a board.
"My problem? what's yours?" my breath hitches, he lifted up his eyebrows waiting for me to respond.
"Exactly, you wont stop!" Charles opens his eyes sitting up watching what was happening.
"Stop what?" I kept my voice quite not wanting my throat to hurt again.
"You lay your eyes on a guy and you fucking flirt!! Chris was right you can't just keep one guy! you instantly flirt with Harvey, even in front of me! it hurts. You're a little bitch" Mark walks out with his eyes widen.
"Joey" Charles says, my eyes watered but I blink them away. Joey eyes fill with regret, he slouches a bit.
"Dude" Mark walks over, I felt my breathing get heavier. I wipe my eyes.
"I'm going to shower" I moved Mark out of the way walking to the bathroom. Nobody was talking, it was silent.
I really wasn't going to shower I just wanted to cry. I thought of something and got out of the bathroom. They all look at me with sad looks.
I grab my phone off the bed and go back in the bathroom, I sit down against the shower and go through my contacts letting tears fall.
I find his name and click on our messages. I scroll up and sniffle.
Kayla; pick me up looser
Alec; ew no, it's very peaceful
Kayla; i'm cold and hungry
Alec; starve women
I continue to read our messages with a smile on my face but with tears falling.
He's gone, i'll never see Alec again. It's my fault, the day was like yesterday. I miss having that protection, someone always being there, someone never leaving my side.
That's all gone now. I'll never be in his arms. He will never see me succeed in things in the future. He won't scream and cheer for me when I graduate college. He won't hold me like he used to when I cried, calm me down when I got anxious. It's all because of me.
I silently cried with my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around my legs pulling them close.
The worse is that, I don't know if he's actually gone, he could still be alive, alone in pain. All because of me.
It was very silent, I think everyone went to bed cause we had to be up early. I walk out and see them all passed out.
I put my phone away and crawl into bed trying to be far away from Joey as possible.
Why do I mess everything up?
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