It was Always You

Chapter 10

{A/N} If you want the real emotional rollercoaster feeling that Gab feels in the beginning of this chapter listen to

Brendon's cover of I can't make you love me While reading this. If not that's completely fine ENJOY!

-Nicole

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I walked into class Brendon wasn't there. Huh I wonder where is is at? The teacher came in with a depressed look on her face she sat at her desk. I started getting curious Cole looked at me with a worried look on his face. I looked down at me arms and they were bleeding, my head shot back up looking at the front of the class I started freaking out. They teacher turned on the TV and the news was on.

"Breaking news, Local boy was found dead in his family's house last night. Police say he died of suicide due to a slice in his arm." I felt my heart sink. Cole put his arm around me in a protective way.

"Here is the Brother that found the victim on his bed holding a bracelet with the letter G on it" That's when it hit me. Brendon was dead, Cole tightened both his arms around me and Kassie ran in along with Ryan, Jon and Spencer. They all hugged me and shielding me from the screen.

"Emma Breathe" Ryan said hugging me

"I walked into my Brothers room and I never thought that he would ever do something like this. I mean Brendon had things going for him, he had a girlfriend and a band he could've been anything he wanted. Emma if you're watching this I'm so sorry. He loved you I know he di- I'm sorry I can't" I broke down crying and then Brendon's picture and mine appeared on screen I started shaking my head. My chest was hurting so bad I grabbed Kassie's hand. And started hyperventilating. Did I do something? No I couldn't of. I loved him. I checked my phone and I had a text from him

Brendon: Emma baby I love you so so much. But with school ending and you going off to college I won't have a life and I don't want a life if you're not in it. Because baby you are my life and I'd rather die than lose you to anything, not even my own stupidity. Now I know you..probably don't understand but by time you're reading this I'll be- dead. Please don't cry over me this was NOT your fault it was my choice. Please carry on without me and take care of my family I know this is going to be hard but even if I don't believe in god and heaven I'll still be with you though what I put in your locker yesterday. Please don't let Ryan and the guys quit making music because I'm gone. And most of all PLEASE be safe for me and live your life. I love you always and forever baby. I love you so so so much you were the best thing that ever happened to me...Goodbye

-brendon

I got up and ran out of class handing my phone to Ryan. I looked in my locker and I saw a necklace with Brendon on it in cursive and I fell to the ground and a picture feel out. I was the one Brendon had somebody take on my birthday. I began crying loudly

"Emma?!" someone continued saying my name repeatedly. Everything went black.

"Emmy it's okay wake up" I heard the voice but couldn't see anything.

*Reality*

*saturday morning*

My eyes shot open and I saw Brendon sitting next to me with a scared look on his face. I started crying and he quickly wrapped me in a hug.

"I-i'm sorry.....Bren" He hugged me tighter.

"Baby why are you sorry?" He rubbed my back

"I..hate for you to see me like this" I laid my head on his shoulder and cried.