Fire N' Gold ~Benlos~

Heart Broken

~Ben POV~

"I don't want you to apologize!" I say aggressively at him, ugh I didn't want to be like this. I hate yelling but I knew he wouldn't have given me the answer I was looking for if I came about this my usual calm way.

"Then what do you want, Ben?!" He yells back, goodness we were arguing like an old married couple.

"My life back! I want my life back! You took it away from me when you gave me that stupid cookie and now I can't get it back to the way it was before!" I yell back at him. This time it makes him go silent once again and I sigh.

"Carlos... I think it'd be best if we just stay out of each other's way" I say, my voice now calm and his face jolted towards me. After he realized I was being serious he just slowly nodded in agreement.

I got up to walk out of the room but his voice stops me right before I walk out.

"See you around, Ben," He says silently, I almost didn't hear him. I turn around to look at him and I see a single tear sliding down his cheek and it breaks my heart. I want to go over there and comfort him and tell him everything's okay but I can't. I need to get my life back to normal, well at least as normal as it can get now.

"See you around, Carlos." I walk out of the room and the moment I closed the door I heard the saddest sob I've  ever heard in my entire life. It was filled with so much hurt and sadness, I knew I had truly just broken his heart.

~Carlos POV~ ~The Next Day~ ~Three Days Until Coronation~

"And then he just left?" Evie asked, shocked by what I was telling them and I nodded. My eyes were red and puffy from last night, I couldn't sleep because I was crying so much. Funnily, I thought the first night Ben would be back would be the first night I got a good nights sleep, I guess that's not happening for a while.

"You know, Carlos, you can take a break from the plan. We got this if you just need to sit back for a second." Mal says walking up to me and grabbing my hand and I smile at her. Lately, she's just been more into our friendships instead of the plan and that's been kinda nice.

"Thanks, Mal. I think I just need a day to myself and I should be good." They all nodded their heads and started to walk away. Jay looked me up and down, I guess because he was more worried about me than the other two. Not because they're bad friends, but because they didn't hear my sobs all night, they didn't hold me in their arms until my crying died down only to have it come back again 20 minutes later. He was the only one who really knew what I went through last night.

"You sure you're okay?" He asks putting his hand on my shoulder and I slightly nod.

"I'll be fine, I'm just gonna spend the rest of the day in the library or in the room or something." I convince and he nods and walks away. I grab some books out of my locker and start walking to the library. I guess I just needed a calm relaxing place to go to. I knew there should be little to no kids in there considering it was a Wednesday and people should be in class.

I turned the corner to see Ben and Audrey standing there talking and I quickly hide behind the lockers. My heart was beating faster and my palms started to get sweaty, I couldn't see him right now, I can't. I'm a mess and I wouldn't want him to feel guilty. I was about to take off when their conversation peaked my interest and I decided to stay for just a couple of seconds longer.

"Audrey please, when I said I didn't love you I didn't mean it! I do love you!" I hear Ben say and my heart kinda breaks. I mean he says he still has feelings for me, but maybe he does love her. Maybe the paper was wrong and she was his true love instead. Okay that was a dumb moment, I can admit that.