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november 7; after school

for probably the longest time in a while, i decided to head to the library instead of going straight home. i told jihoon to not wait for me and that he can go back home, although he insisted that we wait for me. i assured him that i will get home safely and promise to text him when i did.

it was quiet and a bit empty, only a few other students occupying the work tables and the librarian who didn't seem one bit interested in her job. must suck to be her. i walked over to the study tables instead, not wanting those who were working on their assignments to be disturbed by my existence wanting to sit next to them. it was nearly 3 pm when i opened up my biology textbook alongside my math notebook, wanting to cram as much notes into my brain at once. i knew for sure i wouldn't have much time during the other days because of how lazy i got and i wanted to just rest when i get home.

2 and a half hours passed and i was barely halfway through my books. exams were in 1-2 days and i didn't want to procrastinate nor get a bad score. unless i wanted to have a full day lecture by jisung. nope, not going to happen. i need to maintain my top rank. i debated whether i should continue to study more despite my tired brain and body, but in the end, i ended up spending an extra few hours studying.

5 hours had now gone by and i think it was time for me to clean up and head home as it is now 8 pm, a time when bus home would be empty so i didn't have to fight for a seat. i organized my notes into my folder, fitting the 2 books into my bag at once, proceeding to then zip up my bag, slinging it over my shoulder. i was about to leave the library but as i turned around to look at the study table area, i see jihye.

i haven't seen her for the past few days, making me worry about her whereabouts. i guess she still attended this school, i just don't see her around campus maybe. but she wasn't awake and studying, instead knocked out over her laptop and notes. sleep wasn't a big thing to her when it came to exams, so i understood her. i was like that at one point too. i just hope she has the energy to continue on. with one last sympathetic look, i walked out the doors in search of a vending machine.

i headed home in the poor lit streets, looking for a convenience store on the way. i bought myself snacks for the night in case i couldn't sleep or just wanted to study more for no reason. there weren't many people around, just the usual neighborhood hang out group who always makes sure everyone gets home safe, saying hello to people every now and then. i walked past them, earning a few " hello " and " get home safe. " i acknowledged them and continued my way home.

i got home at around 9:15, a time jisung would not have been happy with but luckily he wasn't home. i loaded the refrigerator with food and drinks, keeping some for myself to take to my room. i walked up the stairs, my untouched bed coming into sight. my room looked cleaner than it was before, even if i didn't clean it myself. i thought to myself how weird it was for it to be clean. so i walked over to jisung's room slowly peeking through the slight crack the door made. his room was clean too so i knew it wasn't weird. he's such a neat freak.

my laptop was currently playing one of my favorite songs, " always " and well, i have never been hit by so many emotions at once. i didn't want to end up crying on my bed in pajamas so i went to go get myself ice cream. my phone started buzzing, notifying that it was time to go to sleep, as it was now 10 pm. i took just a few tiny bites of ice cream and slowly walked back to my bed again not wanting to sleep. i wanted to stay up and watch shows or dramas i missed out on but as always, jisung would come home in a few hours and i didn't want to get caught so i forced myself to sleep.

" jiyoon. hey jiyoon you awake? "

i woke up to the sound of jisung trying to wake me up in an urgent matter. i didn't know what was going on but i had no other choice but to go along with what was happening. he dragged me downstairs to the living room with him and there on the tv, played the news.

" according to news reporters on the scene of the accident, a teenage girl had jumped off the Han River bridge. no suspects have been found and there were no weapons located in the surrounding area. it looks to be a su- "

i hurriedly reached the remote, turning the tv off before it could say anything more. tears formed in my eyes and started to fall. this didn't seem real, the news didn't seem real, nothing felt real to me. i didn't want to believe this or anything. i stumbled backwards, falling onto the cold floor. i sat on the floor, sobbing, unable to control my emotions. i could cry for days and weeks if i wanted but it all came to an end.

" jiyoon, wake up. "