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cigarette;sugamon

yoongi's pov

there's nothing that could calm the itching nerve to grab a cigarette and chase it down with a lighter between my lips. there was nothing that could compare to the feeling of smoke expanding in my lungs. the burning making me shiver in pleasure as it reached to my fingertips. just as the thought reached my mind i twitched running my fingers lightly over the cherry wood nightstand beside my bed. nothing. it was gone, instead replaced with a note. i picked up the flimsy sheer pink paper and began reading, a grin dancing over my lips.

remember, you promised you'd quit. and don't even think about smoking another one of those cancer sticks.

love, joonie

he never forgot things easily, never really put things in the back of his head like i told him to. when it came to me he never forgot, not one thing slipped his mind. that was the wonderful thing about him. assured me that he would never forget of me. it was a blessing and a curse. i hadn't gotten over the thrill the toxins that i inhaled gave me. i tried so hard, but the lump in my throat only grew with each passing hour that i didn't have the skinny stick shoved between my lips. but i endured every single second of it.

sometimes at night, i woke up gasping for air almost suffocating. it's like my lungs shriveled and couldn't take in air anymore. like smoke took over my body. i hated the feeling but i needed it at the same time. buried deep in my thoughts, a slow buzz followed the silence signaling a message on my phone.

hey babe, r u up??

i'm up now, joon

that's good, i'm glad u r up

how so?

well you were breathing really hard in your sleep but i couldn't stay and help so i held you until i had to go. i was really worried.

oh really? i'm
sorry ; ;

it's fine gi, i wasn't late or anything, um take some tylenol though so i can assure you'll be fine. no cigarettes either ok?

ok i won't

good
i love you
i don't want you to leave me

then i'll live for
you.

i put down my phone back beside me on pillow and sighed lightly. the instant beating of my heart signaled i was alive and breathing. spontaneously i really was. the effects of the tar entering my lungs almost had no effect. i felt so human, my skin was in fire almost and i couldn't rid of the smile quickly rising on my lips.

from that day on i knew i would live for him...

— i know it's short asf but i forgot to upload when i was awake so i woke up just now to upload this! anyways, plz go read my new book 'by the beach,' it's hyungwonho !! anyways byeee~